Sinful Mates 1-3 novel Chapter 84

　　Imogen’s POV

　　Theo’s grip on my wrist made me realise what I was about to do. Giving Tobias enough time to reach me. Tobias gripping my wrist along with him but, the darkness was stronger as it surged through me. Sparks moving up my arm from their touch, and I could feel Tobias and Theo lending me their strength through the bond as I fought against the darkness. Encouraging me to fight against it, to fight for them.

　　“You don’t want to do this Imogen,” Tobias said his grip tight on my arm. I felt like I was stuck, not able to move, frozen in time, when I felt the fog rush over me. Only this time I didn’t shake it off, I let it move over me, letting it relax me and I throw all my focus on the feeling of the fog calming and muting my thoughts that were racing. I relaxed and took a deep breath concentrating on my breathing and I felt my hand release Theo and I fell backwards on the grass. Theo panting as he caught his breath, Tobias laying flat on his back, and I knew he could feel the pain Theo was in.

　　Yet I could still feel the darkness trying to force its way back, force its control over me as the storm above us raged to magnitude levels. Theo regaining his strength sat up and brushed his hand over mine, but I pulled mine away, I feared what I could have done to him. I did this, and I finally understood what Theo meant. I was addicted to the power, addicted to the feeling it gave me. And when I was like this, I forgot who I was, forgot what they mean to me.

　　“I’m okay Imogen,” he said trying to reassure me. I shook my head. Guilt eating away at me, I could have killed him, and destroyed Tobias because I let my emotions get the better of me, let the magic have the control it wanted. But most of all, I was losing who I was to something that was going to destroy me and those I loved.  I felt Tobias brush his hand down my back as Theo crouched in front of me. Torn between what I knew I needed to do and what I craved. I craved the power that was within me, like a drug. A drug I didn’t want to admit was a problem.

　　Yet my love for them outweighed it. I know if I let the magic have control, if I give in to it. I wasn’t only going to lose myself; I knew I was going to lose them too. That wasn’t a sacrifice I was willing to make.

　　Everyone has a breaking point, and I knew I reached mine already, and I know they weren’t far off from theirs. I know the decision they would make, and it would be the same for me if our roles were reversed. I would turn my back on them for the sake of our son. Thinking of Thaddeus, I felt tears run down my face; I was angry with myself and what I allowed myself to become.

　　“We are going to work this out Imogen,” Theo said. Making me look at him. Theo was drenched in blood and I did that to him, and he was still here trying to make me feel better even though I hurt them. He was right, we were going to work this out, but in this moment, I was a danger to them, a danger to myself. Theo and Tobias must have sensed my guilt as they both tried to reach for me, but I shook them off.

　　“Run” I don’t know what made them move, Theo and Tobias were suddenly gone from my side. I wouldn’t risk it taking over. I won’t risk losing them when they are all I have left.