Standing Before Love (Myra and Sean) novel Chapter 444

Matthias felt oddly ashamed of himself as he lowered his cutleries. He watched helplessly as Nikolai stormed off. It seems like Nikolai really treats Heather differently. I’ve always thought that he didn’t know anything about romantic relationships, but I guess that was just because he hadn’t met the right person at the right time. It worries me to see him so deeply infatuated with Heather though. Who would have thought that it would be love at first sight for Nikolai?

He reminds me of how I had felt when I first fell in love with Myra after seeing her gentle and warm smile. Love is such an unpredictable thing. Who knows if he’ll spend the rest of his life longing for a girl, or if he’ll be able to get over his feelings before that?

Heather lowered her cutleries when she saw how worried Matthias seemed. Any spark of romance that they shared a while ago was completely gone after Nikolai’s sudden appearance. They both exchanged glances with one another, and neither of them looked like they had the appetite to continue their meals. “I’m sorry,” Matthias finally said after a while.

He didn’t understand why he felt the need to apologize, but his apology was precisely what Heather had been waiting for. In response, she curled her lips upward as she questioned the reason for his apology. “What’s there to be sorry about?” she uttered in a casual and lighthearted tone. She wasn’t about to get herself caught between Matthias and Nikolai.

“Nikolai has been under a lot of stress recently, so he might have acted out of line earlier. I hope you can forgive him.” Matthias was attempting to justify Nikolai’s acts, but it clearly wasn’t much of a justification.

“It’s fine. I wasn’t too bothered by it. I’m full now.” Heather gave him a hearty chuckle, but he had to force himself to look away, for he would have been too distracted by her angelic smile otherwise.

“I’m full too. Why don’t we go to the living room and try something from my alcohol collection?” he suggested. He wanted to get rid of the awkward atmosphere between them, so he figured that they had to do something else.

On the other hand, she swirled the remaining liquid in her glass and finished it before she responded. “It’s late now. Perhaps we can do it some other day!” Heather no longer wanted to stay around, and she made it clear with the look in her eyes; even her smile was starting to seem rather impatient.

“Let me send you off then.” Matthias decided that he couldn’t forcefully keep her around, so both of them then got out of their seats.

“It’s fine. I’ll see myself out.” Heather felt oddly sober after rejecting his offer. She no longer wanted the ambiguously romantic relationship with Matthias; any mildly intimate acts they shared between them only reminded her of her past self that she despised. Now, she believed that liking someone was a sacred and unique experience, and what she had with Matthias was a compromise that was gradually growing into a romance. The slow transition from putting on a show as a couple to privately interacting with each other as a couple was frightening for Heather.

Yet, Matthias couldn’t comprehend the fear that Heather was feeling. He wasn’t even aware of how much he had fallen for her as he still believed that Myra was the only woman he fancied.

That was the thing about romantic relationships that weren’t wholly established—neither party would know what would happen next if one of them genuinely fell for the other. Being the combination of a woman who refused to open herself up to love and a man who had another person that he fancied, they simply weren’t suited to toy around with the idea of love between them.

We would only hurt each other in the process. Heather might have been testing the waters for a while, but she quickly came to this conclusion. Therefore, she rushed off soon after Nikolai interrupted their meal. All Matthias could do then was to watch as she made her way out.

Evan hurried over to send Heather off once Matthias sent him a look, and he returned to see that Matthias had flipped the entire table over. As Evan began to tidy up the mess that Matthias had just made, the latter was still fuming with anger, so he gave Matthias a long, thoughtful gaze.

Only a few individuals were aware of the fact that Evan and Matthias were friends. Heather knew that Matthias was her senior, but she didn’t realize that Evan was, in fact, her senior as well. Halfway through their studies, Evan traveled to England to train as a housekeeper, and Matthias had specially hired Evan to work for him because of the relationship they had with one another. Regardless of where Matthias went, he would make sure to bring Evan along with him.

Matthias didn’t necessarily need a housekeeper for himself, but what he longed for was a person that he could talk to. It was tough to suppress all his emotions without releasing them to someone, and Evan was his trusty outlet. He trusted Evan since he was a quiet person who knew not to gossip about others.

“Stop cleaning up,” Matthias said to Evan. “Get someone else to do it. I want you to have a few drinks with me.” Matthias walked over to Evan as he spoke, and Evan had no choice but to get to his feet. Although Evan wasn’t the most outstanding housekeeper, for he often achieved only the bare minimum standards, he was still a decent listener. That was the main reason their friendship grew, even though they had only been classmates for a year.

“Did I make a mistake?” Evan was an observant man. For a moment, Matthias was tempted to ask Evan if he had ever not made a mistake.

Once they got to the living room, Evan dutifully opened a bottle of wine for them. All the alcohol that Evan had picked out for Matthias were top-tier drinks, and the both of them often had a few glasses with one another. Several issues might have been a cause for concern when they were sober, but there was little that they couldn’t solve by having a few drinks. At the very least, alcohol allowed them to escape their problems for a while.