Standing Before Love (Myra and Sean) novel Chapter 457

Right now, Matthias had completely lost his composure and confidence. He was no longer his usual self, and his cowardly character was now totally out in the open. At this moment, Heather could not get away, but she could not ignore him either, so the two embraced each other in a bizarre manner.

“Am I a failure?” Like a child, Matthias was curled up in Heather’s arms. He was a tall and burly man, yet he looked especially fragile at this moment.

“No. There is no winning or losing when it comes to matters of the heart,” Heather replied gently. Recalling her previous relationship, she also thought at that time that she was a failure.

Hearing that, Matthias held back his tears. Men should not shed tears, so he just stared at Heather. With mixed feelings, Heather felt uncomfortable under his stare, and she thought that she saw the old her in his eyes.

“You’re not manly at all when you look like this.” Heather slightly raised her eyebrows, trying to ease the tension.

At this time, no matter what she said, Matthias would not care much. In the past, he certainly could not stand such words from her.

“Yes, all these years, I pretended to be strong, but in fact, I am a coward.” Matthias seemed to have changed back to a past version of himself, who was timider.

Looking at this side of Matthias, Heather even felt some shame in her heart. During that year, it was indeed wrong of her to have treated him like that. When she thought about it, she was the one who had killed him with her own hands, so she hugged him tightly, as if to convey the guilt.

“Don’t talk about yourself like that. You’re already strong.” Like a gentle sister, she comforted him.

Previously, Heather could not understand that kind of weak mentality, but now, she seemed to understand some of it. Sometimes, she herself was weak too. Revealing an ironic smile, she thought to herself that, if she could turn back time, she would not make that kind of decision. Now, nothing could be changed back to what it once was.

“I’m still frustrated about why she could not remember me.” This was a persistent issue in Matthias’ heart, and perhaps if it was resolved, he would not be in so much pain.

“You are concerned about the fact that Myra can’t remember you?” Heather asked tentatively. If it was because of this, then it would not be easy to deal with.

At least in such a short period of time, it was impossible to unravel the problem of Myra’s memory; even Heather did not know why Myra had forgotten Matthias, so she was afraid that it would be difficult for anyone to know the reason for it.

With that, there was no way to find out the reason behind Myra’s loss of memory at this time. Nevertheless, Myra and Tony’s wedding was imminent, while Matthias was anxious for an answer, so it was a time of contradictions.

In short, Heather could not think of a better way to solve this. She had to comfort him as well, so it was a rather uncertain time for her.

“If she can tell me that she no longer loves me and that the past is in the past, I might be able to let go.” Matthias really longed for a clear answer, rather than Myra’s complete loss of memory of him.

He had told himself countless times that Myra had long forgotten about their previous relationship, so he should not be so insistent about those memories created when he was younger. But occasionally, it still popped into his head that Myra might have forgotten him because of some external reason, and perhaps when she recovered that memory, the whole situation would be very different.

However, the second possibility was improbable; besides, even if Myra remembered the relationship they had when she was young, it would hardly affect her current feelings for Tony.

After all, Myra was not one to give up on her current long-term relationship for a past one. Although Matthias knew this, reason always escaped him.

Time and time again, he had tortured himself, but he still could not be freed from it. That relationship he had with Myra had become an obsession, and with such an obsession in one’s heart, it was a happy yet terrible thing.

“Myra is pregnant, so many tests cannot be done,” Heather rather hesitantly said. She felt that she should be clear with Matthias because she was really afraid that he would do something bad.

However, Matthias looked at her in confusion as he didn’t understand what she meant. So, Heather had no choice but to continue, “I once suspected that there was a problem with Myra’s memory, so I deliberately took her to the hospital for tests. However, the doctor could not make a sound judgment because she’s pregnant, so he couldn’t conduct many required tests.”

Heather carefully explained to Matthias so that he could understand.

“You suspect she has problems with her mind?” Matthias asked, pointing to his own head.

“That’s pretty much what it means.” Heather inexplicably felt a pang of guilt because Myra had been losing memory of Matthias little by little.