"Bad dream?" Nala asked Lou when she was woken up because his body kept trembling. She tried to wake him up, but only managed to do so after two whole minutes. "What happened?"
Lou pushed himself up from the bed and then sat down. He looked outside and it was still night.
"Come here, sleep again," Nala said. It had been five years since the last battle with Decratic, but their relationship didn’t improve at all. She was still his woman, someone that would warm his bed if he was in the capital city, but Nala didn’t have any idea whether Lou would seek another warmth when he traveled around, which he did a lot.
"No, I am hungry," Lou said, he got off the bed and asked someone to bring him food. freēwebnovel.com
"You look so awful," Nala said, she waited for his reply, but he didn’t say anything. He sat down on a single chair and closed his eyes.
Nala had been with him for so long, she understood him. He would be like this whenever he didn’t want to be bothered.
And not long after that, someone knocked on the door and brought food that the merchant wanted, while Nala continued sleeping.
The next day, Lou had gone. He didn’t say anything and every time Nala asked for him to let her knew where he would go, or at least, tell her if he would go somewhere, he would chuckle to her face.
"Why should I? Are you my wife? My mate? Or whatever you called that. I will go wherever I want to go."
That would be it.
Physically, they were very close, how could they not when they drew pleasure from each other without any restrain, but emotionally, Lou would always put Nala at arm length.
He would be nice to her and shower her with gifts, but the next time they met, he would be so cold and calculative, or he would straight away ignore her, but then he would act childish, as if nothing had happened.
This confused Nala.
"If you wanted to end thing and pursue another life, go ahead. I will not stop you. I will compensate you handsomely. You don’t need to worry about money."
That was what Lou said when Nala brought up the possibility of them being together... like a family. She tried to bring the idea of having a child, but the merchant laughed again.
"You can have as many child as you wanted, but not with me."
Nala was free to leave this relationship, but she chose to stay, thinking if she gave him enough time, Lou would change his mind.
Especially when he saw how happy Iris was with her mate, having their own children.
"You are not Iris."
"You are coveting someone else’s woman. The queen."
Nala couldn’t take it. She knew that was not Iris’s fault for Lou’s obsession, but she was sad and upset because she couldn’t have a simple life that normal people had.
"People know how I feel toward her. She knew, Cane knew. You are so stupid if you have not figured that out."
That was their first big fight and Lou disappeared for half a year, when he returned, he acted so sweet, he gave him gifts and overall became the happy Lou.
That was ten years they were together.
Nala stared at her reflection on the mirror. She was no longer young. She was thirty three years old now and she had nothing.
Not that she didn’t have a roof over her head, not that she didn’t have food on her table, not because she didn’t have fancy dress to wear, but because her life felt very empty.
She walked on the street and saw women around her age and even younger, walked with their children, having their man by their side and walked together happily.
But she? She had no one. She only had Sabian, but right now he was already very old, he was very sick.
"What are you thinking about?" Sabian asked. "You look trouble."
"I am fine, Sabian," Nala said.
"Still the same problem?" Sabian asked, he looked so old and he was breathing heavily.
Nala was afraid that if he died, she would completely be alone in this world. She couldn’t rely on Lou. She knew that she couldn’t be with him. Growing old with him was not an option, but still, she held onto a nothingness.
"Let him go, Nala, live your life." Sabian patted her arm. He thought of her as his own daughter. "You have waited for him for too long. It’s no longer worth it."
Sabian knew very well the dynamic between Nala and Lou and this was not the first time he suggested for her to stop waiting for him, yet she didn’t listen.
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