"Why should I bother telling Cane?" Iris didn’t change her expression when she questioned him back. "To give you more reasons to hate me?"
Zephyr gulped down with difficulty, he felt so ashamed. He didn’t even dare to meet with those blue eyes of hers directly.
"Don’t worry, I’m used to enduring everything alone. Your words were nothing compared to what I have heard my whole life. It’s not something new to me." Iris disliked herself right now. Being passive aggressive like this made her feel depressed.
But it was Zephyr’s fault to bring up the topic to begin with.
Iris tried to forget about it, since it only hurt her badly to know what they were thinking about her. She almost succeeded in pushing that hurtful moment to the back of her mind, along with the trauma and every other horrendous thing she had ever endured, but Zephyr touched the wound again.
"Even though it will be nice if you can restrain yourself from insulting me, I can’t control the way you perceive me, nor can I change how you feel about me."
This time, Iris gritted her teeth, feeling so mad for being reminded of it again.
However, Zephyr didn’t see that, because right now he was more interested in staring at the floor beneath his feet, feeling mortified because of the guilt that ate at him alive.
"You don’t need to talk about this anymore, it has been established that you don’t like me and I don’t have an obligation to like you either. Let’s be civil with each other."
"Luna, if you let the alpha know about it, he will remove us from the position of your personal warriors. Why didn’t you do that?" Zephyr asked again, but he still didn’t look at Iris. He was physically taller in front of this petite luna. He was your typical warrior shifter with a bulky and tall body that could intimidate you.
Yet, Zephyr felt so small and useless in the presence of this auburn haired woman who looked so delicate.
"There must be a reason why Cane chose all of you. He must have trusted you so much and it will disappoint him to know he made the wrong decision. At the very least, we are on the same page in this matter; we don’t want to disappoint the alpha and burden him with unnecessary trouble when he already has enough on his plate. Right?"
That was right, but all Zephyr could do was nod his head subtly.
"More so, he would have found other warriors to fulfill the position and there is no guarantee the new warriors wouldn’t be the same." Iris sighed deeply. "I know and noticed the hatred from the warriors for me. Let’s be cordial, so we can coexist peacefully, that’s all I hope from you."
Zephyr couldn’t hold it back anymore, he dropped to his knees and hit his forehead against the floor in front of Iris.
"I ask for your forgiveness, luna," Zephyr said in a small voice. He knew his error and felt so ashamed about himself. The audacity of him to talk bad about the luna was beyond him when she was so graceful not to punish them at all. She didn’t even say a word to the alpha.
Knowing their alpha, if he knew what they said, they wouldn’t only end up in the dungeon or be sent to chase after monsters in the Goffa mountain, they would have died in misery.
Now Zephyr understood why the alpha genuinely cared for her. She deserved it and more.
It was real. The way the alpha showed his affection toward her was real, because there were some people who didn’t believe it and thought the alpha just faked it for whatever reason he had to gain something. But, Zephyr could vouch that the alpha’s attitude toward his mate was real.
"Forgive me, luna. I have stepped out of the line," Zephyr said, he felt so remorseful. He really wanted to beat himself up so badly for the way he talked about the luna. She didn’t deserve their nasty words. "I have directed my anger blindly toward you. I have been so blind to not be able to see past my hatred."
Zephyr said solemnly with his forehead touching the floor, he bent himself so low to show her his submission.
"Forgive me for all the pain I have caused you." His words dripped with contrition and grief.
But, Iris didn’t budge, she stared at him with her impassive expression. If it was in the past, she would have cried and busied herself to pull Zephyr to his feet, but right now the only thing she felt was sadness.
It took them long enough to see their error and herself to be in so much pain to receive their apology...
If she could choose, she would rather not talk about it and pretend it had never happened. After all, she almost managed to erase such painful moments from her memories.
And now, what Zephyr did, reminded Iris of Avid. She missed the warrior. She remembered every word he said when he thanked her that morning after he learned what Kaz and the other pack members had done to her.
"You may stand up, Zephyr. It has already happened, let’s move on and don’t talk about it again." After all, Zephyr didn’t say as much as the other four warriors. That was why, Iris thought, she could be on good terms with him and chose him to be Zale’s mentor.
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