Iris averted her eyes, it was obvious she was upset. "Is there someone else?" she asked in small voice when Cane was about to push her away.
"What?" Cane stopped his movement and let Iris laid against his chest.
"Do you have another woman?"
"What kind of nonsense is that?"
"You have been putting some distance from me. You subtly rejected me. Do you think I don’t know that?" Iris gritted her teeth to hold back her sadness.
"There is no way I rejected you, Iris." Cane reassured her, he relaxed a bit and played with her hair. freewёbnoνel.com
"You did." Iris got off his chest and was about to leave, but Cane pulled her back, flipped her body and pinned her down against the bed. "Am I not attractive anymore in your eyes?" she wanted to sound brave and nonchalant, but the voice came out so pitiful.
In the past two weeks, Cane avoided her, not physically, but it seemed like he was holding back his affection toward her. He made sure they didn’t go astray from simply holding hand and sweet kisses, a cuddle or two if Iris was making a fuss because he treated her very carefully.
"Did I do something wrong that upset you, which I was not aware of?"
"Of course not, you have never done anything wrong to upset me, love..." Cane said. Recently, he always used that endearment to appease her. "I am sorry if you thought that way. Maybe because I am a little bit busy and tired."
Iris blushed when she heard the way Cane called her. At the beginning, she also though that she was being irrational and overthinking, since Cane must be very busy lately, hence he was withdrawn emotionally, but there was something that kept bothering her heart and mind, yet she couldn’t put her fingers in it.
What was that feeling?
"I want to help," Iris said in small voice.
Cane sighed deeply and kissed her forehead. His kiss lingered a little bit longer, as he cradled her head and caressed her cheek, made their body extremely close. Iris liked his weight on her, of course, he didn’t put it all, but it was enough to make Iris felt like his body cocooned her.
"You are already helpful just by breathing," Cane said softly. "Keep smiling, Iris. I feel my days are easier when I saw your smile."
Iris felt very giddy when she heard that. Recently, Cane had been very generous with his expression of love. He let Iris to see his vulnerable side and showed her how much she meant for him. She was not sure what changed, but she liked this.
However, Iris still couldn’t shake off this nagging feeling, where she felt Cane was being emotionally withdrawn from her and the occasionally emptiness in his eyes, despite what he said and the way he treated her.
"I feel disconnected from you recently, Cane. I feel like you are so far away from me," Iris confessed. She used to voice out what she felt and Cane learned how to slowly communicate his feeling from her. "Even now, I feel like there is this invisible wall that separate use, though you are kissing me now. I can’t understand why I feel this way, but I really feel it."
Cane lifted his head slightly and stared into her eyes, while Iris stretched out her hand and ran her finger on his brows. "You have sadness look in your eyes. Why are you sad?"
Cane didn’t answer that. He simply stared into her eyes deeply and for a moment, the room became very quiet, only the sound of their beating heart and breathing that could be heard, echoing loudly inside this bedroom.
"This battle worn you out..." Iris said softly. "I wish I can bring a little bit happiness in your life."
Cane closed his eyes, he felt her touch and savored this moment. "If there is happiness that I feel in this chaotic world, it must come from you, Iris. You are the happiness and joy in this wretched life."
Iris couldn’t help, but teared up.
Iris used to feel she was insignificant, often be a burden and had never done enough. But, Cane always said that she was beautiful. It took her long enough to believe it, but once she did, she believed every word that came from his lips.
So, when Cane told her she was the happiness and joy in his life, she felt his love for her. Her heart burst with contentment.
"I love you, Cane..."
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