The Luna Trials by Marissa Gilbert novel Chapter 68

Chapter 68

“Savvy, what do you mean?” Kai’s face went pale, and the princess’s smile dropped. She expected him to be over the moon about it,

or at least stunned, but she could feel waves of tension radiating from him now and did not know what to do.

“Kai Fionnlagh, this is not the reaction I was counting on,” she informed him with her brows knitted together.

“Savvy,” he pulled her into his embrace and cupped her chin gently. Nevertheless, she could tell he was nervous. “Are you-”

“I don’t know yet, if I am honest,” she admitted, blushing softly. “I think it’s possible.”

Savannah felt his grip on her stiffen and instantly knew that something was wrong. She distanced herself from him, the mood sour

all of a sudden. Was the possibility of the two of them having children together so scary for him? Weren’t they talking about expanding their family right after they got married before all the drama? Did he change his mind? A panic attack started without warning, affecting every single cell of her body. Why was it going all wrong?

“If you don’t want the child-” She fiddled with the sheet, lowering her eyes, and he growled, getting her back into his arms and onto

his lap.

“Savvy, I want it more than anything. You, me and an army of our little pups. I want it all,” the King assured her. “There is one problem, though. I… Sawy, I think I f*cked up.”

Now he was the one who couldn’t look her in the eye, and she started to get worried.

“What is it?” She brushed his cheek with her palm, tilting his head towards her. Surely, it couldn’t have been that bad.

“I’ve been blessed by a god, Savannah,” Kai confessed, and she breathed out in relief. She kind of figured this one out already.

“It seems to be a common theme lately,” she chuckled. “I only heard about it in legends, and now I know three people who have had the honour.”

“Three?” He shot her a puzzled look.

“You, Ria and… Bjorn,” she admitted, letting out an exasperated sigh. “There is this deity that helps him- You know, never mind. This night is ours, and I want to only speak about us.”

“You see, Sav, there is a difference between me and the others,” Kai decided to be honest with his mate. He didn’t want to start their new life together with lies or hiding essential information. Their family wouldn’t be like that, and his Luna deserved to know everything. She deserved all the best things in life; especially choosing her own destiny. Unfortunately, that was one thing he partially deprived her of

now.

“What do you mean?” Savannah was ready to listen to whatever it was he had to share with her. She could see how not easy it was for him and gently laced their fingers together to give him the reassurance he needed.

“The deity who blessed me was Fenrir,” Kai revealed, but this was something she already suspected.

“Well, it was to be expected,” Savvy asserted with her lips curled into a gentle smile. “He is the patron of the North, after all.”

“You see, the problem is, I don’t think he wanted to bless me,” the King sighed, avoiding her gaze.

“Then how?” Now Savannah was lost. Surely, a god had to know what he was doing. And why wouldn’t Fenrir want to save the lycan who served him his whole life?

“He is… not what we imagine him to be. He looked… like he didn’t care. Long messy hair, a beard and a few scars on his face,” Kai closed his eyes, trying to remember any details. “He didn’t come to help me. It was an accident.”

“An accident?” The princess gasped. Here she thought that Kai had a similar experience to Riannon’s, but apparently, that couldn’t be further away from the truth. “Is that even possible?”

“He came to retrieve the spear,” her mate admitted. “It was all he wanted. But the moment he touched it, something happened,” and a jolt of divine power went through me. This brought me back to life, but it was temporary, and Fenrir seemed as surprised as !

was.”

“Are you even sure that it was Fenrir?” Savvy couldn’t believe what she was hearing.

“Yes, I am certain of that. It’s hard to explain this, but he is my deity. At some level, a part of me has always heard his call inside of my soul. It spoke to him even if he did not respond. The moment our eyes met, I knew who he was.”

“But why didn’t he want to save you then?” She couldn’t comprehend this. The Moon Goddess went to great lengths to help Riannon because she believed that her sister-in-law was worthy of a second chance and that they deserved to win the war against the foxes and bears. Why didn’t Fenrir feel the same way about the King who worshipped him his whole life and served the North with his

whole heart?

“He looked… strange,” Kai replied after a while. “Not godly at all. He looked like he was just passing by. If not for the spear, I don’t think he would have bothered helping me at all. He told me that my life was over, and I had to go to the next world, that it would be

better, and I would be happy there.”

Savannah’s heart clenched uncontrollably. Her nightmare could have been true. She could have lost him because no one was eager

to save him. Him being here right now was just dumb luck and nothing more.

“Sawy-“her mate took her hands into his large palms and placed one to his heart, while the other was pressed against his lips. “I

will always be at fault about this, but I hope that you will understand. I was already on the other side, dead and gone. And all I knew was

that I left you alone at the worst of times. My house was in flames, and I saw dead bodies around me. I saw Zack, and I could smell the

scents of the bears that had already left. I knew that Bjorn took you away and that you were alone. At that moment, that was all I cared

about. I-”

“What did you do?” The Princess whispered with pale, trembling lips, only now realising how worried he really was. He did

something. Kai did something he couldn’t forgive himself for.

“Fenrir did not want to save me,” the Northern King repeated himself, “and I begged him to help me. I held the spear in my hands,

not letting him pull it out, fighting him for it. I knew very well that the moment he retrieved it, I would go back to the other side, and you

would be on your own forever. I couldn’t let that happen.”

“What did you do?” Savannah’s nails dug into his flesh, demanding the answer.

“He told me there would be a price,” Kai said, his voice void of emotion as he couldn’t bring himself to look into his mate’s eyes. “I

said that I was ready to do whatever it took. You were my number one priority. So, when he said that my firstborn would be this price, I

agreed without hesitation.”

Savvy choked on her own breath and let go of him. Her hands wrapped around her belly unconsciously. This was the moment when

she knew there was a life inside of her; this was the moment when she felt it for the first time so distinctively that she couldn’t ignore it

anymore or pretend that it wasn’t there. She was with child, and this child would be taken away from her one day.

Life was so cruel indeed… Why was it so merciless? What did she do to deserve this? Was she so horrible that all the bad things.

always happened to her?

Tears stung her eyes, and she blinked them away because she knew crying wasn’t an option anymore. She couldn’t be weak. She

couldn’t afford to be weak. Even though she wanted to fall apart, she knew that now she had to be stronger than ever.