The Return of My First Love novel Chapter 58

Alessio

For a second, the car was filled with silence, but then Donni broke into laughter. "You must be fucking joking. Levi, are you hearing this guy?" I couldn't tell whether he was amused or just extrEmilyely concerned.

He had known me the longest, knew how much I enjoyed the presence of various women without tying myself down to one. I always said the thought of falling in love made me want to puke—so I understood why he was weirded out.

The idea of me, Alessio Fanucci, falling in love was too absurd to accept.

"Bro, that just doesn't make sense," Donni reacted, not even trying to accept the situation. "It's clear the two of you have been fucking like rabbits all day, but love? That's a big word."

"I know. I'm not the type of person to just randomly say shit. You know that," I spoke, irritated. It wasn't something that came out of the blue. It was something that had been on my mind for days, and now I could finally come to term with it.

I was in love with Emily. Deeply in love.

I loved the way I could talk to her, I loved her awkward and quirky traits, I loved her good heart, I loved the way she loved her daughter, how she brightened my day, could make me smile with just one look—and I could go on and on all day.

The point was, I loved her, and that was that.

"Did you tell her you love her?" Levi asked carefully, knowing Donni had already triggered me to the point where the wrong thing could make me snap.

"No, I haven't. I've just decided that I love her," I said, only to hear the bone-crushing sound of Donni's laughter again.

"You decided something like that on the spot?" he said. "If that's the case, then it's not real. You think you love her—but you just love fucking her—"

I warned him, "Watch your mouth."

"I am watching my mouth." Donni spoke. "I know you, Alessio. I know you better than you know yourself, and that's why I'm trying to help you. This is not like you—wake up!"

I glanced at Levi, who had been trying his best to stay out of it. Donni thought I was insane, but Levi's stance was still unclear.

Not that either one of their opinions mattered to me.

"How about your arrangEmilyent? Aren't you supposed to let her go at some point?" Donni hit me with another question.

"I don't know what I'm doing, all I know is that I love her and I don't want her to leave my side. Ever," I decided. The thought of letting her and Naty go without my protection was unbearable.

"You don't want to bring her into this life. She has a daughter," Levi couldn't keep quiet any longer, but his hypocritical comment only added fuel to the fire.

"Then do you want me to send her back onto the streets so she can get back with that abusive asshole and be his punching bag again?" I began losing my cool.