You Saved Me Once Book 1 novel Chapter 40

“Hayes.” I get closer and closer.

Hayes isn’t saying anything. He’s just playing in my hair. So, I lean in and kiss him.

He immediately backs away and lets go of me. He’s upset.

“Alex what the fuck.” He grabs his hair and wipes his lips. His voice is soft, but raspy.

“I followed my heart.” I say. He’s still close to me.

“You just fucking ruined everything.” Hayes says.

“Like last time?” I ask.

I knew he’d keep this a secret, just like last time, right? He has to.

He doesn’t look at me. The pit in my stomach pulses.

“Hayes, I’m sorry!” cry.Water fills my eyes. I don’t fight them.

“No. This time Alex, you crossed the line.” He says, he wipes his face.

Seeing him cry, makes me cry.

“Hayes, talk to me.” I say, but he won’t

. I grab his hand, bubut he pulls away.

He goes back to cleaning up, and putting stuff in the car, passing me every time. Ignoring me, every time.

“You didn’t want this?” I ask.

“Grab your stuff, I’m taking you home.” I grab my stuff and throw it in the car.

“Why did you come back to Versa, huh? Not for Rochelle, I know that.” I say, but he still ignores me.

The pit in my stomach deepens, my heart aches.

“Fuck this, I tried. I didn’t even want to get in the car with you.” I say. He finally looks at me.

“You drive me all the way up here, and what? We have history, what’d you think would happen?”

“What about the party?” I say.I can’t look at Hayes for too long.

I see tears on his face.

“I’ll call a cab, it’s fine. I don’t want to be in the same fucking car with you, again!” I shout.

I take Hayes’s phone, slam the car door, and start walking farther away.

Hayes comes up from behind me, and snatches the phone from my hand, and hangs up.

“Get in the car Alex!” He shouts.

“I fucking hate you!” I say to him.

“Say that again? Tell me, that what you just did was okay? Come on, tell me one of those secrets,, Little Richards. I’ll drop it, I’ll drop it all. Just tell me the fucking truth, for once.” He says.

I stay silent.

I don’t stop the tears, they rush out. Hayes is close again, he’s so angry, this hurt me too much. I’ve never seen him this hurt, ever.

Everything happy tonight, was leaving my mind.

“No!” I yell at him.

“You’re such a fucking liar Alex!” His voice makes me jump.

Everything is ruined. He’s ruined me again. I hate myself now. I want Hayes to hate me. I want him to hate me, because I can never hate him. I love him too much.

“I had sex with Jeff. In your car!” I yell.

I cover my mouth with my sleeve seconds after I say it. I regret say-ing it.

“That day we got doughnuts, I fucked him. There’s the truth.” I say.

“Do you hate me, now?” I ask him.

Hayes turns away from me, grabbing at his hair. He goes to his car, and calls someone.

20 minutes have gone by. Hayes is still in his car, I’m standing in the same spot.