Ascension of a Gamma novel Chapter 60

Chapter 60 Forgiving Imperfections

Anna

“Please talk to me,” said Alpha Emery. For the last thirty minutes or so, he’d been begging me to talk to him. Why couldn’t he understand that I didn’t want to talk to anyone, especially him! I pulled the covers up to my neck and didn’t reply. He could keep talking for all I care.

“I’m really sorry, Bella,” he repeated. For what – for lying, for kidnapping me, for killing my father? Why did I even stay in the first place? I was free to go. Why didn’t I just up and leave?

Why do I keep getting myself stuck in messed-up situations!

He sighed. “I’m sorry. I’ll leave you alone.”

“I didn’t mean for any of this to happen, Bella. I’m sorry couldn’t tell you. How could I, knowing you’d hate me for it,” he said softly. “I’m sorry. I just wanted my daughter back.” 1

I heard the door click close.

I moved out the covers, resting my back against the headboard. Staring at the walls, with the moonlight seeping through the blinds, I let my thoughts wander.

I thought about the days I was growing u p – my time with Father, with Alpha Fraser, with Beta Colton, with my best friends, Flynn and Carson. Trained as the next Head Gamma, I learned to fight for myself and to put others before me. It was my duty.

I thought about the day they were taken from us, and what my life was like after. I t was hell. Being scorned every day for their deaths, my love for cooking, and Carson risking his position were the two main things that gave me hope. Along with a promise that I’d fulfilled. I returned the Alpha ring, not as his Luna, but as his friend. That should be enough t o free me from my promise.

I took a deep breath.

Then, I thought about my days at the Red Claw Pack. They’d been kind to me. Right from the start, they treated me like I was one of them. Me, a stranger! They looked

after me like a sister. Lexy, Gale, Rigel – I missed those three. Lexy and Gale fighting over the simple things like children, Rigel being the dirty-mouthed oddball that he was, would cross his arms and watch them with an amused face until he gets annoyed and smacks Gale in the head. In the end, all three would laugh like idiots – actually, it was all four of us laughing like idiots. We’d create a racket that Liam would have to ask us to keep the “noise” down because he had to work.

I missed those days – when we were having fun.

When the pack was under attack, I saw just how strong their bond was. I saw the strength of the pack under their leadership, under his rule. What did I do t o deserve him?

He was simply amazing. His pack respected him, and he stuck to his principles. Then I saw the man behind the statue. He was broken, alone, and hurt – just like me. Willingly, he showed me the ugly parts of him. He trusted me enough to let me in…

Why did I ever doubt him? I know what I saw, but he wasn’t that kind of man. He wouldn’t cheat on me. How could I have been blind? So, what if I didn’t hear him say it back – hadn’t he always looked out for me? Even without his memories, he…

A sob escaped my lips.

What have I done?

I promised I’d always stay beside him. I left. I saw what he was like… but I- I still left him.

Liam…

If Father was here, what would he say? If Mother was here, what would she say? I was confused. I understood what happened. I understood their intentions, and yet I was still mad. At the lies. All their lies!

I miss you, Father. If I forgive him, I’m betraying you. But he’s still my father and I can understand why he did those things.

“Goddess, won’t you show me a sign? I don’t what to do. My father killed my father. I’m doubting what I saw my mate de Luet found out my mother lauad ma

1. do. I just found out my mother loved me, too.”

You have the heart of an Alpha.

I let the question ask it itself over and over again in my mind. The outcomes weren’t easy, but…