Baby With The Billionaire novel Chapter 14

Jade's POV

Two weeks away was enough for me to feel a little bit better about my situation. For my weeks away, I stayed in a resort in Pennsylvania. The environment was so beautiful, enough to make my thoughts focus on what was in front of me and not what was in New York. I had dinner in a different restaurant each night, so they wouldn't feel sorry for me being alone. I went to the theatres and saw a new act each night. It was those moments that made me better, stronger and healthier.

I didn't think about him or the fact that I was pregnant with his baby.

In all my years of living and learning about love, never have I ever thought I would fall in love with someone and they would break my heart so bad that it's beyond repair.

I should hate him, I should really hate him, but I can't. My heart and memories just weren't allowing me to hate. He was great most of the times we spent together.

Even though thinking about him was just too much for me to handle, I couldn't help it. Knowing that we'll never be together, knowing that he only sees me as an incubator for his baby. It kills me.

Knowing that I'll never have him touch me again.

Stop! Stop!

He hurt you, he broke you.

But I still love him, so very much.

Having a heartbreak doesn't stop something you from thinking about what could have happened, but It makes you sad because all the things that aren't going to.

It's funny when I was away for two weeks none of these thoughts came to my mind but now since I've been back I couldn't avoid them. Everything reminded me of him. Maybe I should have stayed away from a little while longer, enough time to get over him.

I sigh, I was about to take up the Tv remote when the doorbell rang. I wasn't expecting anyone at least not until later and Cassie was a door knocker. I stood up from the couch and made my way to the door. I open the door to see the object my thoughts and affection. I was speechless, I had no idea what to say to him. My emotions were all over the place.

I wanted to be happy to see him, yet I wanted to hate him too.

"Hi," he was the first to break the silence.

"Hi," I said, sounding weird to myself. I never expected to see him until I gave birth. I told him I didn't want to see yet here he was.

Why was he here?

"We need to talk. Can I come in?" I considered how to answer him carefully. He wasn't asking for anything. He just wants to talk. Let the guy talk for goodness's sake's, he deserves to explain himself. Without answering I opened the door wider for him to enter. Normally when a guess came over I would offer them a drink, but he didn't deserve anything from me especially since he managed to break my heart and slander my name in one sentence.

He took a seat on the couch I was in a few minutes ago. I walked over to the single sofa and sat down facing him.

I tried to make my eyes go everywhere else but on him, because I knew he was looking at me, I could feel it.

"I'm sorry," his voices got my attention immediately. I couldn't help but look at him. "I'm sorry," he repeated. We were both looking at each other.

Looking into his eyes I made me want to believe him. Made me want to believe that he was truly sorry.

"It was never my intention to hurt you. When I was speaking to Lenard about you I never thought about it, I was just saying what I think I needed to be said. I'm sorry. I don't think of you as a whore, you're not. You're beautiful, friendly and genuine. I never meant what I said I was angry, angry that you have to stop our relationship. You're right, it was never so us to continue having but I didn't want to stop. I couldn't stop, all I wanted to be was you. I'm sorry. I hope you'll find it in your heart to forgive me. I want to be apart of my child's life. This is very important for me. My father was never there when I need him. I don't want that for my child." He paused and look at me. "We made a deal. You'd make me be a part of his life."