Ditched Cheating Alpha, I Led My Daughter to Life's Peak novel Chapter 119

I look up at him. I expect to see his eyes changing color, or an angry expression, but I just see pain. Just like that day in the backyard.

"Talk to me," he says.

It hurts because I can tell he feels rejected all over again and I don't know how to tell him that I'm upset because I kissed his brother and I don't know where we stand. He thinks something's genuinely wrong with me, but the only problem is I can't deal with my own guilt.

"I can be serious." He gives me an overly tense expression.

I chuckle a bit, feeling a heaviness in my heart, and he chuckles too.

"Okay that was the opposite effect," he says. "But I stand by what I said. I can be there for you in this way." He takes my hand, holding it firmly.

"I know." I hold his hand back just as firmly as he's holding mine. "Okay, let's talk."

He smiles and moves closer to me, ready to pull me into his arms.

I step back quickly. "Maybe stay there. I don't know how you'll..." I can't even look at him. I hold his hand tighter, wondering if even that is too much contact. "Do... you know what happened yesterday?"

He nods, rubbing the back of my hand. "You and Aiden were fighting."

"What?" I look up at him.

He raises an eyebrow. "You and Aiden got into a fight when he was taking you home, didn't you?"

"What makes you think that?"

He shrugs. "He's blocking mindlink. That only happens when he's fighting with you."

"Oh," I say.

"Am I wrong?" he asks.

I shake my head. "No, I mean something did happen yesterday, but that's not what's bothering me right now. Well... it is, but we can talk about it later all together because I think it involves all of us equally." I nod, liking my words. "But right now it's something else."

"Okay," he says more like a question. "So what is it right now?"

If I don't say something of importance, Carson'll feel like I don't trust him with serious stuff. He'll think I don't want to talk to him. But if I tell him I kissed Aiden, he won't trust me. And if I keep lying, I might ruin whatever it is that we have.

And where is Aiden during all of this? He's basically lying to his brothers about what happened and leaving me to carry all the blame when he's the one that kissed me.