Ditched Cheating Alpha, I Led My Daughter to Life's Peak novel Chapter 153

I sigh. "I don't want you to be mad."

"What makes you think I'm mad?" he asks.

I wave towards his... everything. Everything about him screams that he's upset, even if he's trying his hardest to stay calm. Or at least look it.

He shrugs. "Well I'm not, so..." He tries to walk around me.

I grab his arm. "Well you're at least upset, Carson." I look at him whether he looks back or not. "And I don't want you to be, so-"

He scoffs, looking at me incredulously.

I furrow my brow. "... What?"

He shakes his head, shrugging forcefully. "You just ask for the impossible sometimes, and I don't know what to do for you," he says. "I don't care what you do with Axel or Aiden. In fact, do whatever you want. Clearly you will" He turns to me fully this time, but he's not glaring at all. He doesn't look upset. He doesn't look filled with rage like I thought he would. He just looks... tired. "That's okay, because that's what I agreed to. But what you can't do is this." He gestures towards my hand on his arm. "You can't ask me to be happy too. That's just too much," he shakes his head as if confirming to himself that he can't handle that.

I want to tell him that, that's not what I'm asking, but it doesn't seem like it's the right time to do that.

"I'm not going to smile when my girlfriend is letting my brothers kiss her and... whatever else it is that you let them do to you," he scoofs. 'It's not like I would know. It's not like you do shit with me-" He curses under his breath, rubbing his face. "Anything, I meant. Sorry. I know, you don't like cursing." He pulls away from me. Not forcefully but firmly. "I just need some space right now to focus on this meeting and the pack, okay?" He looks at me.

I don't know what to say, so I just nod.

He sighs. "I'm really not mad though, so please don't worry." He hesitates, then pulls me into his arms. "It's fine." It's the shortest hug he's ever given me. It's the only hug he's ever hesitated with. He just disappears into the kitchen right after.

Should I consider this progress, just because we aren't technically fighting? It doesn't feel that way to me. I don't even know what to say. I can't even look at Aiden who walks past me without another word, following Carson. I can't even look at Axel who gives me a sympathetic look.

He wraps his arm around my shoulder, pulling me closer. I honestly don't know if that'll make anything better, but I'm not going to refuse the only person who's not looking at me like I royally screwed up-again.