Ditched Cheating Alpha, I Led My Daughter to Life's Peak novel Chapter 200

After awhile of just pushing through the nausea, she started following me and my friends. So now I can do what I want, and go where I want, but it still doesn't feel right. If it was up to her, though, we'd sit by the window all day. Who can live like that?

I spend most of my time with my friends and she stays around the sidelines with that rabbit. She won't let it out of her sight. After a while, Suzie suggests that I try to talk to her again, because it's creepy with her just watching us.

I try casual conversation. I try deep midnight talks. I try questions, I try answers, I try statements, I try commands. Nothing works with her. She looks at me like I'm the cause of all her problems, so I stop trying. Like I said, I spend most of my time with my friends, and she stays around the sidelines. If that makes her happy, so be it. I tell myself that again and again, but it doesn't sit right with me.

She's taken to staring out the window all the time now, regardless of where I go. No matter how many jackets I give her, she's always cold. But still, she stays by the window even as the temperatures fall to freezing. I wonder if she's waiting for someone. I wonder if she actually thinks they're coming. I remember doing the same thing for my mom and dad around the time I realized Mrs. Simone wasn't my parent.

Food, water, rest, time. Food, water, rest, time. I decide it's not enough. She looks like a bird in a cage. I keep her alive well enough, but her mind is dying. I can feel it through the imprint bond. She's growing more miserable every day, and I still can't hear her thoughts. Adults warn me that I may never. I don't know what to do. I need advice. Better advice, from someone who knows what they're doing.

Carson suggests staying in the same room because that's what his mother made him and his brothers do when they started fighting really bad. I tell him we're already doing that, and he says that's all he's got. Aiden suggests taking her outside to remember there's something past the window. That, I can work with, even if it is melodramatic-he says he read it in a self-help book.