Life After the Storm novel Chapter 36

LILLY'S POV

I can't believe what Ivan has just told me about Jenny. How could she be capable of something so evil? I know that Ivan hurt me, but I couldn't have done that to him, maybe it's just because he is my mate. I know that she didn't want to marry him, but to kill him. Knowing the repercussions for this are going to be so bad. How do I even begin to even tell Landon?

He's going to get so angry as soon as the words escape my lips. I want to avoid lying to him. I want to tell him the truth of what I just heard. I then think maybe it is better if I just keep it to myself for now. I need to find Sam, so I can figure all this out. I don't want Ivan to leave I don't know if he is safe, I know that I shouldn't care, but I do.

As Ivan is sitting on my bed, I see the pain in his eyes, I can tell he is terrified. I want to comfort him,, but I don't know how. The feelings I have for him are only because of the mate bond. I walk over to him and sit beside him on the bed. "Give me Sam's number, I will call him and tell him to come right away. But you need to promise me that you will stay right here and not try to escape, I need to know you're safe."

As he looks at me, his eyebrows raised like he surprised that I am concerned about him at all. "I will stay put Lilly, just please get me Sam."

And look back at him before I exit the bedroom, "please Ivan, just listen to me, I will get Sam just stay here."

I don't know why I'm so worried about him leaving. It's not like it would make any kind of a difference. I just want him to be safe and out of harm's way. I don't want him to think that I care, but I can't help but to show it. The baby has been kicking like crazy, hearing his voice. It makes me wonder if the baby knows that he is her father. As I rub my belly, I head for the door.

All of a sudden, I hear a knock at the door I am nervous to answer it I automatically go into defense mode, which is odd. I go to look to see who it is, and I see it's Landon.

"Landon, I need to get a hold of Sam his brother do you have a phone."

'Yes, at my house how is he holding up."

"He's still weak but he's recovering I need to talk to you about something But you can't get angry at me."

As we are waking over to his house, I'm nervous as I keep tucking my hair behind my ear, trying not to make it so noticeable that I'm nervous or anything is going on. I don't say anything, waiting until we are in the privacy of his own home. I don't want others to hear me talk, not sure who it may in danger.

  As we approach his house we walk in suddenly Landon grabs a hold of me forcefully but gentle at the same time. As He pushes me and pins me up against the wall, I can see fury but a motion in his eyes. "Lilly, do you love him?"

"I don't know my mate's bond with him is strong, but my other feelings are not, I don't love him like I should."

"Lilly, I don't want to lose you I don't want you to leave, I need you to stay."

"Landon, I am not going anywhere, I promise. I just want to help him, he's the father of my child."

As his grip loosens up on me, he let's go, I become relieved. "Lilly, I know I can be hard to handle, and I'm sorry, but you keep me sane."

I get a feeling that I'm not used to, it, almost feels like butterflies in my stomach. I know the feelings that I feel for Landon,, but he has also hurt me. I wish I could forget about all the things that have happened, but I can't. I don't know why I'm so easily to hurt. All I really want is just to be happy, but I really don't know if that is even possible to be happy the way that I was when my family was alive. It's like I'm a broken soul left just to suffer.

"I will go get you the phone, so you can make your phone call."

"Landon, wait, I need to tell you something."

He stops and looks back to me "what is it you need to tell me."