Life After the Storm novel Chapter 43

As the sun is beaming in my eyes, I have no way of escaping it. I come to the exception that it is just time to wake up. As I sit up in bed and I reached my arms out to stretch. I then notice Landon is still sleeping. I'm surprised that he stayed over. I can't help but stare at him, he is so handsome. I want to just snuggle into his smoking hot body, but I decide to get a shower instead. I Want to look my best when he wakes up.

I try to get out of bed as discreetly as possible, so I do not wake him. I tiptoe to the bathroom, trying not to make a lot of noise. I then shut the bathroom door, letting out a breath, knowing I can breathe now. Landon has been so stressed out with all that has been happening, allowing him to rest awhile longer won't hurt anything.

I then walk over to the shower and turn the water on until I get it to the perfect temperature. I then begin to undress as I look in the mirror. I see my growing stomach realizing I'm going to be a mother soon. I am terrified that I'm going to be a terrible mother. I even forget I'm pregnant sometimes, how am I going to be able to take care of a baby. I'm not sure how everything is going to even work out.

I never wanted to be a mother this young, but sometimes you're not given the option of what you want. I just hope that I don't suck at it. I am scared that I won't be as great as my mother was. She was so amazing and always knew what to do, what to say.

As steam begins to cover the mirror, I then remember I came in here to shower. I got lost in my thoughts, worrying, will I be good enough? I know that there are going to be challenges, hoping I will be able to conquer them alone? Will I be able to put my child first no matter the cost?

As I go to turn around, I jump as I see Landon standing in the doorway. “You are so beautiful, Lilly, I wish you could see what I see when I look at you.”

As I'm standing there naked, I can't help but feel a little insecure. Landon's body is like a brick of muscle, he is so sexy, way better looking than me. I smiled at him, “you scared me, would you like to join me for a shower."

“There's nothing more that I would want to do, but I have to go check on Jayden. I left him with my housekeeper, she said she'd watch him for the night, but I think it's time for me to go,, will you come over later.”?

“Of course I will get a shower and I will come over, maybe you can make me some breakfast.”

“I would love to make you breakfast, what would you like?"

“I don't care what you make, but I would love some bacon, anything with bacon sounds awesome.”

“Alright, that sounds great, let's say I will see you in an hour.”

“Perfect, that gives me plenty of time to get a shower and to get ready. I will see you soon.”

As he walks over to me, I become nervous being all naked in front of him. He then puts his lips gently against mine as he kisses me. I then feel his hand travel down my body as he grips on to my ass. My body begins to go crazy for him. As I watch him walk out the door, I want to stop him. So, I can have him fuck me hard. Give me exactly what he has made me crave.

As I watch him shut the door I'm disappointed, but wanting to be satisfied I begin to think of him as my hands travel over my body. I grab my breast with one hand as I begin touching my pussy with the other. I begin letting soft moans out, not being able to stop myself from wanting the pleasure I desire. As I imagine all the things that I desire Landon to do to me as I'm getting ready to cum I scream out “Yes Ivan yes, please don't stop.” 

I instantly stop and don't even get my release what the fuck I said, Ivan no. I don't love him, I don't want to be with him. Why would I scream out his name, fuck? I become frustrated and I finish washing myself. As I finish up, I rinse off and then shut the water off. I step out, grab my towel to dry myself, I become angry at myself. Why must Ivan come into my head, damn it?

I hear a voice and realize it's star. “Lilly, he is our mate, you can't help the feeling that you feel for him, it just comes natural.”

“Star, I don't love him like I love Landon. I don't want to be with Ivan, I want to be with Landon.”