Life After the Storm novel Chapter 58

LANDON'S POV

As I watch Lilly walk away, I feel sorry for all that I have done to her. Even though I know it is exactly what she wanted. I wonder, though, would she still want it if she knew what it all cost?

I snap out of my thoughts when I hear Jayden yelling at me. “Daddy I don't know why you gotta be so mean to Lilly. All you do is make her cry.”

“Jayden, I'm sorry, all I wanted was to protect you.”

“Daddy, I don't need your protection. I can take care of myself. I'm a big boy now. I'm 5 years old.”

“Jayden, it's just too complicated for you to understand.”

“Daddy only because you make it that way.”

“Jayden, I think it's time for you to go to bed.”

“Daddy I wish you would just listen to me for once and not treat me like a baby.”

I watch as he stomps away. I want to chase him, but I know that it will do nothing. He is so hard-headed, just like his mother, always wanting to help others no matter the cost. He is too young to understand that all that I do is for him. I want to protect him, no matter the cost.

I had no other choice. I had to do exactly what Dean told me to. Especially if it's going to protect my son. I wanted to avoid involving Jayden in any of this. But it was hard not to. He is a healer just like Lilly and this will confirm everything what they truly are. I believe that is why Lilly feels such a connection with Jayden because they are the same. She would do anything for him, no matter the cost. This proved it.

Hating how Everything just got out of control, I never thought that Ivan would do all the things he did. I mean, I knew that she would survive because she can't die. But knowing all the suffering that she had to indoor was just uncalled-for. I didn't realize that Jayden would have the abilities to feel all the pain that she felt. I hate that he had to pay the consequences of my actions.

As I go to walk up the stairs, I decide I need to stop punishing myself that there is nothing I can do. What is done is done. Then I hear a sound that catches my attention as I walk back over to the door. That is when I hear the knock at the door. I waited to open, not wanting her to know that I was at the door so soon. Not wanting to give her the wrong idea. 

It's time for the truth, but I'm afraid once it is out that she will never look at me the same way. That I'm going to lose all her respect. Hating how difficult things have to be. I put my hand on the door knob and began to twist, not wanting to open the door, but I did. I try to give her a cold expression, but I can't help but to look at her beauty. 

As her lip begins to move, I'm in a trance, not being able to respond, scared that after the words come out of my mouth that it will be done and over with. That there won't be any fixing it, but I have no other choice, so I just say it.

“Lilly, your tests are complete. You wanted to find out if you were a healer, now you have your answer.”