Life After the Storm novel Chapter 63

Fuck, what the fuck is wrong with me? I can't believe myself. There I go once again, I get all heated, and I forget everything. I scoot over to get out of the car. He reaches his hand out to help me, but I ignore him, not choosing to feel his touch. I Then feel the heat from his hand touching the middle of my back. The feeling of lust begins to take over.

I try to control myself as much as I can, feel my panties becoming wet. Not wanting him to know how I'm reacting to him. When we approach the hostess, she becomes nervous as her speech stutters, “Alpha, wow, it is so nice to see you. I hope you're having a pleasant evening.”

“Yes, I am thank you, I have reservations.”

As I watch, her put her hand on his chest, and she begins to flirt with him, taking her finger and rubbing it down his chest. As she begins to speak, “Alpha, there is no need for you to make reservations. You can come in anytime and I will find you the best table.”

“That is very kind of you. Can you please show us to our table?”

God, I am becoming so fucking irritated with this bitch. I can't help but let out a growl underneath my breath. Trying to warn her to back the fuck up. I know I don't want him, but my bond is making me react defensively. I watch as she then looks and smiles at Ivan and says, “Of course Alpha, let me lead you the way.”

I then step in front of Ivan, putting myself in between the both of them. I am shocked by my jealousy, but I can't help it. God, I hate what this bond is doing to me. I can't feel for a monster. He doesn't deserve any kind of love. I get so lost in my thoughts that I feel a strong hand grab me and hold me back then noticing we reached our table the hostess eyes up Ivan and smiles as she nibbles on her bottom lip she begins to say “Here is your table I hope you have a great evening if you need anything and I mean anything I'll be at the hostess stand.”

I can't take it any more. I look at her full of frustration. “Excuse me, do you not see that he is here with his mate.”

She looks at me and laughs. “You his mate? Yeah, right, you wish he was. 

I go to go after her, but I feel Ivan's grip tighten as he steps in front of me. He looks at the girl more serious than I have ever seen him look, “Are you laughing at your Luna?”

I can see the fear appear in her eyes. All my anger then disappears as I watch her tremble. It then reminds me of how scared I was of Ivan. I then playfully grab a hold of Ivan's arm. It's okay, she didn't know we did not announce it., yet it's okay, Ivan.”

“I'm so so so sorry, Luna, I didn't mean to disrespect you.”

“It's okay, you didn't know, but please go away.”

As I watch her walk away, I'm surprised that Ivan didn't feed into her hitting on him. Instead, he was respectful, and it seemed like he didn't even notice her beauty. To be honest, her beauty was hard to miss. “Lilly, are you going to sit down?”

“Yes, I'm sorry” as a snap out of my thoughts and sit down. I'm not sure what to say to Ivan. I become relieved when the waiter approaches us, “good evening, what can I get you to drink? I look at Ivan, then the waiter, “I will have water please.”

Ivan turns to the waiter,” I will have the same.”

As I look over the menu, I am uncertain what to get. I want to ask what is good here, but I want to avoid giving him the wrong impression that I care what he thinks of anything. Then I hear a voice that I have missed so much, it's star. I close my eyes, wanting to only focus on Star's voice. “Lilly, he is our mate, and you marked him. We will always care and wonder about him. Know matter how much you fight it, there won't be any way of resisting him forever.”

As I open my eyes, I see Ivan is ordering. I'm uncertain what he is saying. Then the waiter turns and looks at me. “Excuse me, miss, what would you like."?

I then put a forced smile on my face and answer the waiter, “I will have exactly what he is having.”