Life After the Storm novel Chapter 64

Is it really possible that the Ivan that I know really isn't him. Could Ivan really be a gentle soul,  even a father someday. I can feel my heart start to sofe for him when i realize what is happening I then shake my head and tell myself Lilly this is the bond talking you need to stop.

I need to stay strong and not let this bond try to take me over. He is at an advantage here because my feelings are being forced because of what I did by marking him. Even thought when I look into his beautiful blue eyes Not knowing how they changed colors because when we first met they were gray. I don't see any kind of hatred like I did before all I see is compassion and love.

I become so unsure of myself looking out the window only seeing darkness isn't helping me figure anything out. It is just making me think more and more. I just want to stop thinking I'm so tired. As I look over at Ivan I see that he is also looking out the window. I then begin to wonder what he is thinking about.

Knowing I shouldn't care what he is thinking about but a part of me hopes that maybe he is thinking about me. And that he is having just as much trouble not thinking about me. as I am trying not to think about him. I just want a life that I would be happy with but to forget all that he has done I could never.

All of a sudden I felt A-sharp pain in my gut. I crunch over in pain as it's becoming  unbearable. Ivan comes over and wraps his arm around my back and   puts my head in his chest. I then become confused not understanding what is happening. Then I realize when I was being tortured Jayden felt everything oh my God Jayden is in trouble.

I scream out in pain and I look at Ivan "we need to get back to the packhouse now if this car cannot drive any faster then let me out."

When I look into his eyes I know that he can tell that I'm not kidding. He tells the driver "go as fast as you can, we need to get back to the packhouse right away."

The driver then slams on his brakes and looks back at his alpha and smirks "That won't be necessary if there is a pack to even go back to."

When I hear those words leave his lips I don't waste any time I go to open the door but it doesn't open. I say nothing as I punch out the window to my door and crawl out. As I feel the glass cutting my skin it doesn't faze me. I hear Ivan "what are you doing Lilly please wait for me I will help you."

As soon as I hit the ground I see the driver door open. I watch as he tries to kick me but I roll to my side and he misses me. I then kick my foot out to trip him. I watch as he falls to the ground. I then shift into my beautiful silver wolf . He then tries to grab ahold of me again. I don't waste any time as I grip on to him by his throat and I bite down hard and take a chunk out of his neck I then spit out and take off to find Jayden.