My Mate Had A Girlfriend novel Chapter 86

"Tell me," he said softly but in a demanding tone.

"Tell you what?" I shot.

Calvin chuckled lightly and then he flipped my hair back, exposing my neck where his mark was on display. With his forefinger, he lightly brush his mark and made me shiver.

"You forgot about it, don't you? We're bonded so good now especially with our upcoming baby. I can read you. I can know what is inside your heart. I know what you're worrying about and I know what is on your mind."

"I don't wanna lose you," I blurted out. There was no point lying to Calvin already and a part of me wished that he would do something about it like calming me down or anything. I just needed an assurance that he would never leave me and just the thought that I might lose him was enough to make me cry.

"And you won't," Calvin said. "You will never lose me. I promise I will stay by you forever."

"But there's Valerie..."

"So she's why you're being restless? Beatrix, she will never be the reason anymore. I know it's hard for you to forgive Valerie but not forgiving her means that you have not forgiven me as well," Calvin said and I felt a pang in my chest when he said that. It was like he was trying to say that they were a part of each other.

"I am not gonna hide about this from you," Calvin continued, "But before Valerie and Matt left, I did talk to her. Their relationship are now worst ours. Matt no longer have trust in Valerie and he's not forgiving her because you have not forgiven her yet."

"This is why I still cannot forgive her! You're still gonna defend her whatever it is. A part of you would still love her and I will never be anybody special in your heart," I cried and got up from the bed and started walking back and forth in no proper direction. The moment that I had been waiting for was here. Calvin was gonna leave me again for Valerie especially now because I was pregnant. I'd become fat and Calvin wouldn't want to be with someone like me.

"No Beatrix, I don't mean it like that," Calvin quickly came over but I didn't want to believe him. Everything else was getting the best out of me and I just let myself drop on the floor and I cried; not for sympathy but because the thing that I was afraid of her -probably scarier that Grabiel- was here.

I felt Calvin came next to me and the next thing I knew was he had me in his arms very tightly. At this point, I refused to open up my bond and feel what exactly he felt for me. I felt so weak and extremely sad. I felt disappointed as well for finally letting him in.

"I waited for you to came back," I heard Calvin whisper into my ear and as much as I tried to block him away, I couldn't because he was close to me and our mark. "Your pain might not have been better than mine but I wanted to make sure if you ever came back from being with the rogue, you'll never go anywhere else from me. I may have hurt you so bad that you couldn't forgive me and I am sorry. You can do whatever you want, slap me, punish me as long as you're willing to put it all behind afterwards. About Valerie, it was not entirely her fault Beatrix. I asked her to be my girlfriend. I had been the one to tell her to put her past relationship behind and focused on me and that had been the greatest mistake I made. I am not trying to defend her but it is my fault. Hating her means that you're hating on me as well and even though you have all the right to, I cannot stand it."

"I cannot stand having my mate hating me. I cannot stand having my baby's Mama hating me. I cannot stand having the love of my life hating me. I cannot stand having the person I want to live with forever hating me. So please Beatrix... please forgive me," Calvin finished off with a tear dropped onto my shoulder.

I remained silent with deep thoughts. What else did I want? I already had Calvin, something or rather someone that I had been longing for. Valerie should just remain in the past and I shouldn't have keep bringing her up. It was unfair of me to keep bringing Calvin and Valerie's past relationship up when Calvin never really brought mine and Gabriel's. Oh goodness, what had all of these turned me into? A selfish bitch.

"I would still choose you no matter what happens now or back then. I was tied to her on my own demand but I would still have chosen you. I would never choose anyone else," Calvin voiced out again.

Yes, he did came for me. He came to help on my first shift. He was with me. He took care of me. And now, we're much more bonded with a baby. He could never pick anyone else over me now.

"I love you so much that I don't wanna lose you," I finally said it out.

"I love you and I don't wanna lose you too. I promise, there is no one else other than you and our baby," Calvin said it as he cupped my face closer to his.