Alpha Nicholas novel Chapter 17

Don’t get me wrong, I’m incredibly happy for my brother. I know he’s wanted his mate for a long time but what a shit situation for it to happen in, and what are the odds that his mate would be my mate’s best friend? Shockingly, that’s what! I know there’s more to his mate’s story and I have a feeling that there’s going to be some work to be done to help her, but she’s family now and there’s nothing we won’t do to help her.

I also know that she thinks that I don’t want her as a mate and of course, while I may have made sure that she thought that to be true, it doesn’t mean that I want any harm to come to her, and that’s the problem, she has been harmed. She’s clearly in pain, I can sense it, can feel it. I’m also an Alpha which means my senses are more heightened than other wolves and I feel even more deeply. She’s in pain both mentally and physically and I know that after how I have treated her I don’t deserve to know what’s going on with her, but it doesn’t mean I’m not going to try.

“So your name is Bonnie?” I see her slightly shiver when I say her name and it pleases me even when it shouldn’t. “Yes, it is, Alpha Nicholas.” I nod while Storm rolls around like a pup in my head loving her name. “How old are you Bonnie?” My gut is telling me she is 18 after something Lily said but surely the Moon Goddess wouldn’t give me a mate 10 years younger than me… would she? “I’m 18.” Yes, yes she fucking would!

“Now, would you like to tell me your story?” She scrunches up her nose with a look of confusion and I swear it’s the cutest fucking sight I have ever seen. Fuck, she’s starting to mess with my head, I can feel it. The sooner she goes home the better. I hope Lily doesn’t want Bonnie hanging around here because I don’t think I could handle it. It’s only been a few hours since we met and despite my thoughts, feelings, and even determination not to have a mate I can slowly feel the mate bond drawing me in and it needs to stop.

“You felt the efforts from the first moment you laid your eyes on her and you know it! You can lie to yourself but you can’t lie to me!” Storm growls rattling my head. The longer we are around her the more angry he’s becoming at not having her be ours. Why the fuck did I think it was a good idea to have her stay here with just me in the room? “You wanted to spend time with her. We both did because tomorrow you’re going to send her away and destroy her and us because you’re a selfish prick!”

I know Storm’s right to be pissed but I can’t handle it right now not when I have my mate sat right in front of me so I block him out and turn my attention to the girl sitting in front of me. It’s then that I notice what she’s wearing. She is in leggings and a tee-shirt both of which look old and torn with a baseball cap on that covers half of her face. “Take your hat off.” Her eyes meet mine as she slides it off her head and I swear that I stop breathing. Despite all of my feelings, I can’t deny that this girl is absolutely beautiful and no doubt the most beautiful girl, that I have ever seen.

“We will deal with it before you leave.” I practically growl the words as I struggle to deal with all that I’m thinking and feeling. she nods her head with a small smile as she turns to open the door. “Please, tell me how you’re hurt?” I just can’t let it go. She shakes her head no but keeps the smile on her face. As she opens the door she turns back to face me. “I want you to know that I understand. Sometimes it’s just not meant to be. I want you to be happy, Alpha Nicholas.” Jesus Christ her words hit me like a sledgehammer as I remain rooted to the spot while she walks out of my office and away from me.

My whole body feels like it’s on fire while my mind goes into overtime and then I drink myself to sleep at my desk. I’ve not been drunk in over 8 years but right now, I don’t care. Both my head and my heart hurt and blacking out from drinking so much is all I need right now.