Regardless of what his reasoning is I just want him to be happy and if that means him rejecting me then I’m ok with that, it just means that I need to figure out a new plan for my life. Sadness washes over me as I think of my life without Lily but she’s got her Mate now and I couldn’t be anymore happier for her. I’d be lying if I said that I wouldn’t be heartbroken to leave her here tomorrow. I’ve never known a life without her and it seems almost impossible to think of another day without her but maybe I’ll get to see her one day.
“Bonnie.” I look up to see my best friend standing in front of me just seconds before she pulls me into her and hugs me with all she has. We spend a few minutes in silence before I pull back and look at my best friend taking in every single detail of her beautiful face. “What are you doing here? I’m surprised your mate has let you out of his sight?” She lets out a small laugh as she turns and points down the hallway where her mate is leaning against the wall staring down at his phone which has me laughing too. “I was worried about you. There was no way that I could wait until the morning to make sure that you were ok, and he wouldn’t let me come alone so there he is.” There have been many times in my life when I have thanked the Moon Goddess for bringing Lilly into my life and this is one of them.
“Lilly, I’m fine, honey. I’m going to head up to my room to sleep, which is what you should already be doing…” Before I even finish speaking she bursts out laughing and I already know where her mind has gone and it isn’t on sleeping. As soon as we finish laughing a somber look covers her face as she leans into me and starts whispering “Will you be ok going to your room? I give her the best reassuring smile that I can all while dread and fear settle heavily on my stomach. “Of course, you know how it is here.” She instantly understands my meaning but she still doesn’t look happy.
“We need to work out what we’re going to do next, Bon.”
“What are you talking about?”
“We need to figure out where we go from here now that the plan didn’t work.
“There isn’t a new plan to make, not for us anyway.
“What do you mean?”
“Things have changed now Lilly. You have your mate.” She takes her hand in mine with the saddest look on her face and I hate it, she goes to talk but I stop her.
“I know the plan we had and I know that it didn’t work but none of that matters now, you have found your mate Lil and as far as I can see, he doesn’t plan on rejecting you. Am I wrong?” She shakes her head as her cheeks go a little pink. “No. He’s already told me that he wants me as his mate… that he wants me to stay here with him tomorrow.”
“And am I right in guessing that you want the same?” This time she nods and I swear her cheeks get even pinker. “I do, Bonnie but I jus-” I shake my head stopping her from saying any more. “There’s no buts, Lil. That you two have found each other is amazing. I’m so happy for you!” I watch as Lily battles with feeling happy… probably the most that she has ever felt, but at the same time sad because she thinks that she’s letting me down. “Don’t do that, Lil. I know what you are thinking but you are wrong, you haven’t let me down. You never could.”
I had thought that being here was going to be a haven from beatings then I was seriously mistaken. After I got back to the room it didn’t take long for me to discover that my sister was alone there. Both my dad and brother had left the ball with She-wolves so that only left my sister here tonight, and while my dad and brother won’t hurt me too much while I’m here, my sister made it clear that she didn’t give a fuck about where we are.
Once she’s decided that I’ve been beaten enough she walks out of the room leaving me in a bloody heap on the floor. I’m struggling to breathe and my sight’s starting to fade as darkness tries to take over. “Bonnie. You need to get up before she comes back.” Lexi begs. I want to listen to her I do, but I can’t move. I think my sister may have done a good job this time. “I can’t Lexi. It’s too much this time. I’m tired of fighting the pain. I’m tired of getting up just to have it happen again.”
As the darkness gets worse, I start to wonder if there’s any point in me even fighting anymore. What will I be fighting for? To go home and just get beaten again? To live my life as a slave and human punchbag? The plan failed, we should have been on our way to our new life now but we’re not. I’m beyond happy for Lilly and Beta Shane and knowing that she’s going to be taken care of makes it a lot easier to want to just let go and give up the fight for survival.
I’m not sure how long it took me to get outside but it was the most painful walk of my life and I’m still not sure how I didn’t pass out. The moment we step outside I hand over control to Bonnie and sit back and watch as she runs for the forest and away from everything that we know. I’m not sure how long I’m going to survive but I trust Lexi. She won’t let me down.
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