Alpha Nicholas novel Chapter 34

I let Storm lose and he runs with all he has. I can feel the anger rolling off him as he storms through the forest and as I feel the wind whip past us as he runs through the trees and the ground crunch beneath his paws I feel him slowly start to calm down and so do I. Reliving everything to Bonnie was so fucking hard. Yes, I’ve spoken about it over the years, more so the first few years after it happened but even then I’ve never given as much detail as I did to Bonnie. Still, she deserved to know as much as possible.

What happened… when we first found out about it none of us believed it so we decided to keep it a secret because it was complete nonsense and just seemed so impossible, but then it became a reality and blew both of our worlds apart. Tony suffered more than me but to think that my time could come scares the fuck out of me. Alpha or not, I’m still a wolf, and while most things don’t scare me, this does in fact, it fucking terrifies me.

It’s also the main reason for keeping away from Bonnie. When I first met her I felt like a sitting duck just waiting for the worst to happen and then when we found her in the words… Well, I thought my worst nightmare had come true but she’s still here, still fighting strong but I’m still terrified. Yes, I want to keep her and I will but I need to figure out some things first, and more than anything I need to tell her. I don’t want to build a relationship based on lies but I don’t want to scare her either or worse have her leave me. Fuck, this is so hard!

The more I thought about it the angrier I would become so after my pity party for one I sat back, switched off my brain and just let Storm have control. I will figure things out but for now, I just need a moment, a moment to picture my mate’s beautiful smile and face, let it all sock into my brain because soon all I could have of her beautiful face and smile is just memories and that thoughts make my heart crack in two…

“So still none the wiser as to why Theo is acting up then?” While I was enjoying my second run of the day I came across Will sitting out by the lake, the same lake that we had been to earlier today, only this time he was alone. After a quick chat, he decided to join me and we ran for what felt like hours but really wasn’t. I want to calm myself down but I also don’t want to leave my mate alone for too long.

He lets out a loud sigh as he runs his hand through his hair “Nope! But it’s driving me fucking crazy. Why won’t he tell me what’s going on? I usually can’t shut the twat up, he’s forever spilling endless crap that I don’t need to hear but the one time I need him to talk to me his lips are more sealed than a nuns…” I stop his rambling because quite frankly I don’t need to hear the next word out of his mouth.

“I don’t know, brother. I wish I did. Our wolves aren’t usually secretive, not unless…” Could it be? His head springs up while his wide eyes will me to talk. Fuck, he looks so desperate right now “Unless what? What are you thinking, Nick?”

“Well, the only time our wolves are usually known to be quiet is if we have met our mate but we just don’t know it yet.” His eyes widen so much it’s almost comical. “Fuck! Your right! But I haven’t met her… or have I and I just can’t know yet for some reason? But why wouldn’t I be able to know? I’m old enough.”

“Calm yourself down twat bag. Shouting at him isn’t going to help the situation, is it? You know he wouldn’t ever do anything like that intentionally.” Will grunts as he walks towards us. He’s right and it just makes me want to throat punch him. “Fuck, yeah ok. I know you’re right.” I turn to face a worried-looking Tony. “I’m sorry, man. I just… fuck!” He walks towards me and slaps his hand on my shoulder “Don’t sweat it, brother. I get it.” He does, he really fucking does!

“She went out the window!” Robbie shouts as he appears out of the front doors to the hospital with a tired-looking Shane running behind him. “How do you know?” I shout even though they are only a few feet away from me. “One of the guards just linked me to tell me she saw her do it. She didn’t think much about it at the time until she heard that we were looking for a she-wolf that had somehow managed to leave a hospital room that was guarded by two wolves.”

“Ok, let’s find your girl.”