Alpha Nicholas novel Chapter 69

Bonnie

Watching Lottie as she steps closer to her mom is somewhat heartbreaking. What must she be feeling right now? What must she be thinking? What do you say to the one person who should have always been there for you? She’s never known the love of a mom and it’s heartbreaking and while I know how she feels in that department there’s still a huge difference in our situations.

Her mom chose to leave her, but my mom didn’t. I’ve heard more than once about how much of a good mom my mom was, and about how excited she was to have me and Blue. She wouldn’t have walked away from us ever but Lola chose to walk away from Lottie and l am pretty sure that she doesn’t regret a thing about it. I can’t imagine the pain that she feels. I wouldn’t want to.

“Why?” She asks Lola. Her voice sounds so raw and pained that I feel a tug in my heart. Nick gently pulls on my hand and leads me across the room until we are facing both Lottie and Lola. “Why what?” Lola asks acting dull. Every single person in this room knows what she is asking. ” Why did you leave me? Why did you abandon me?” Lola rolls her eyes, actually rolls her eyes at her daughter as if she is asking a stupid question.

“You shouldn’t ask questions when there’s a chance that you won’t like the answer.” Lola grunts. Since the moment that Lottie walked in here not once has she shown even an ounce of interest, and even now as her daughter looks directly at her, she just looks through her like she doesn’t matter. Still, I guess the sad reality is that Lottie doesn’t matter to Lola because if she did then she wouldn’t have left her or at the very least she would have come back for her but she never did.

“There ain’t anything you can say that will upset me. I accepted the situation for what it was a long time ago. I guess I’m curious. Curious as to how a mother can just abandon her daughter, can just walk awayand never return.”

“I did return.” Lola grunts looking bored of this conversation. “Oh yes, that’s right Mother dearest. You did come back didn’t you, and why was that now? Oh yes, that’s right. You came back to gain money from me.

That’s why you came back.”

Lola turns her head and gives Nick a fifty look forcing me to lodge a growl in my throat. This isn’t anything to do with me so l’ll do my best” to remain quiet but if it’s needed then I will get involved and I won’t regret a thing. “Do you think that I wouldn’t tell her the truth? Why the fuck would I cover your ass?” He spits while several grunts of agreement echo around the room.

Instead of answering him, she turns her attention back to Lottie as she huffs. “Look kid, I’m sure you’re lovely and all that but I never wanted kids, ever! I was forced to have you. Believe me, if I could have gotten rid of you I would have but I couldn’t. If it’s any condolence to you l looked after you for three years before I left you here so if you ask me, your situation could have been a lot worse!”

Is she fucking kidding me! Oh hell no! Now I’m beyond pissed. I know she’s a bitch but good goddess there was no need for that kind of response. I keep my eyes on Lottie and feel pride as she remains standing with her shoulders pushed back and her head held high. I can imagine that those words have hurt a lot but she’s not giving Lola an ounce of reaction I may not have known her for long but I still feel proud of her.

“You are one sick bitch!” Robbie growls as he storms towards Lola. ”

You never looked after her, her Granddad did!”

“Me… her Granddad… does it really matter? Who even are you?” Lola asks once again looking bored. She doesn’t give a fuck what her words have done to Lottie. “Oh wait, you must be one of Nicky’s brothers. You are, aren’t you? You have the same eyes, although I must say that you are by far more good-looking than him. It’s a shame that you ain’tLottie’s dad. I could make it work with you.” I hold back another growl at her calling my mate Nicky but it is quickly replaced with a laugh that I can’t hold back and neither can most of the others in the room as we watch Robbie shiver in disgust while he gags.

“Oh, sweetheart. You couldn’t pay me to go near you and if I had thought that Nicky had gone anywhere near you then I would have had – his ass committed to a physo ward! Yes, I am his brother. I’m also Lottie’s Uncle and I’m one lucky fucker to have her in my life.”

“I’m sorry if I made you feel awkward but I appreciate you not saying anything.” I turn my head a little and whisper back to her. “You have nothing to feel sorry for. I loved what you said. We may have a long way to go Lottie but know that I’m here and I have your back regardless of our situation.” She pulls back giving me a beaming smile and thanking me before looking back at Nick.

“I’m going to head over to Jenny’s, Dad. I don’t need to be here anymore and I don’t care what happens to her.” Nick smiles as he gives her another hug. “Ok, darling. I’ll call you once l’ve finished taking out the trash.”

She smiles and then looks over her shoulder toward my dad and

brother before dragging her gaze along Blue and Lola before it stops back on Nick. “Make them hurt Dad. Not just for me but for Bonnie and everyone else that they have hurt. Make it the worst pain that they have ever felt.” I can’t help but smile as I hear little chuckles come from across the room.

“That’s my girl!” I hear Shane cheer as he comes over and takes her hand. “I’m gonna walk my niece over to Jenny’s. Don’t start the fun without me or I’ll be pissed.” Nick laughs while agreeing as we watch Shane walk Lottie out of the shed. Within seconds of them leaving the doors open once more

and in comes a herd of men all as tall and muscled as the next and I feel myself stiffen before taking a step back only I stop when I hit the brick wall that is my mate as he presses his chest against my back and wraps his arms around my waist. “It’s ok, baby. They’re the Elders and some of their people. They won’t hurt you. I won’t allow anyone to hurt you ever again.”

His words warm my heart and I want to believe him, part of me already does but the fear is still there and as much as I hate to admit it, I’m not sure if it will ever go away. As the men approach us Nick keeps me in his arms and I’m grateful for it because the closer these men get to me the more uneasy I feel. Goddess I hope they are the good guys that we need right now.