Crossing the Border (Rania) novel Chapter 290

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“I am sorry, I shouldn’t have reacted that way…” Eli said in a small voice, feeling so embarrassed and scared. She knelt down in front of Rania. “I have overreacted and I am sorry,” she said regretfully.

However, it was still a strange concept for her that the two of them were joking around like that. She had never seen a man and a woman joked around the way The queen and the royal gamma did. When they hit, they hit hard, there was no joke in there.

Therefore, she was rather surprised with how casual the two of them were.

“I am sorry,” Eli said again.

Seeing how Eli was terrifying, Eiten immediately went to her side and told her to stand up. “It’s okay, it’s okay. You will get used to it. Come on, get up.”

Meanwhile, Rania, who watched this felt bad for Eli too. The trauma that the men in this kingdom left for the women must have ran so deep.

“It’s okay, Eli.” Rania knelt down in front of her and asked her to stand up.

Yet, when Eli saw this, she immediately lowered herself even more out of instinct. “I am sorry, my queen.” Panic filled her voice because she was scared since the queen had lowered herself.

“No, please, don’t be like this.” Rania then helped Eli to sit down again.

And to Eli surprised, the queen was hugging her. “My queen, this…” Eli was stunned. She didn’t know what to do. Would it be wrong for her to reciprocate the hug? But, what if she offended the queen if she didn’t hug her back?

“Eiten, can you leave us alone? There is something that I want to talk with her.” Rania’s voice was very calm, but it held so much authority to the point it sounded like an order and as a royal gamma, he couldn’t refuse a direct order from the queen and the king.

Eiten was conflicted, he looked at Eli, who pleaded with him not to leave her alone, but then Eiten remembered what he had asked Rania before. He had asked a favor from the queen and it seemed, this was the right time…

He felt bad, but he knew it was best for him to leave and give the two of them some alone time, after that, he

would count on Rania.

‘Sorry,’ Eiten mouthed when he stood up and then left.

Eli became even more scared because she was left alone with the queen, not to mention Rania was still hugging her.

However, when the queen was talking, her voice was very calm and soothing. “Do you love Eiten?” Rania asked a simple question. “Have you had a doubt about him?”

Eli felt her tongue was tied. She still didn’t dare to touch the queen, therefore, it was only Rania, who held her.

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“I ask you not as a queen, but I ask you as a friend,” Rania said, she caressed Eli’s back gently. “Do you want to be with him?”

Eli didn’t answer the question, because for her it was not as simple as that, she couldn’t find the right words on how to describe what she felt towards Eiten, therefore she didn’t make any sound.

But, Rania didn’t give up. She knew how it felt to be in Eli’s position, even though Eli had it worse, but she was familiar with the feeling of helplessness and fear.

She had been there, done that. She had man forced himself into her, and she was helpless to fight back. She scared for her life and thought this wretched life of her was not worth it. She had tried to kill herself…

She had lost a child twice, which made her life turned upside down and now she had to face with the reality that she wouldn’t be able to give Maximus an heir. She lived her life in fear too, even though it was different kind of fear, but she was familiar with this feeling.

“It happened to me too, Eli.” Rania started.

She could feel the rush of a raw feeling she had buried so deep inside of her came rushing back to the surface, but when she spoke, her voice was steady.

“Someone had touched me. He forced himself into me. I have been living in a hell for more than a year.” Rania shook her head. “I have been living in a hell for years, Eli. My mother died when she gave birth to me and my father blamed me for that. He didn’t do anything when that man harassed me and sullied me.”

Rania stopped talking because she could feel the dam had been broken inside of her. The feeling of rage and anger, also helplessness.

And even when Rania didn’t see Eli, she could feel how tensed she was, as she listened to her.

“I will never say that I have gone through more than you. No. I don’t think I can live your life. You are very strong to stay alive for your daughter, but don’t you think you also deserve happiness?” Rania hugged Eli a little bit tighter, but this time, she was the one, who needed this.

Rania wanted to tell her more, but she couldn’t. Her chest caved in and her throat felt so dry.

“All I want to say is; I know what is fear, helplessness and how scary hope can be. I am afraid that if I let someone in, they will hurt me even more and shatter me into pieces, because sometimes, hope can be scarier than the danger itself.”

Eli started crying, her chest rose and fell, because Rania said exactly what she felt. She was afraid to accept Eiten, she was afraid to let him in, because inside her was so ugly. She was scared he would leave…

“But, I promise you, Eli, Eiten will make you happy, he will make both of you happy. you can keep my word

on that.”