Crossing the Border (Rania) novel Chapter 291

Chapter 291

hil didor know what to say to the queen. She felt seen. The quee had said the feeling that she was unable to say. The queen kaew how it tell to be helpless. She knew how disgraceful it was for a woman to be touched that way

She had never thought that the queen had gone through so im as well. She had gone through the same hell.

In the end, she hugged the queen back, she cried in her arms, as he caressed her back to calm her down, but it was hard for Eb to find her peace.

There was a turmoil, a storm that raged inside her.

“How Eli asked, she wanted to say something, but she couldn’t get the words out of her mouth. Her chest caved in “How how could you…” Eli shook her head because she was upset with berself for not being able to say the word clearly.

“How could I trust again? How could I let Maximus to be with me and let him in?” Rania asked, seemingly to know what Eli wanted to say.

And she was right, because Eli nodded her head.

“It was difficult, Eli. The journey was not smooth. It filled with agony and distrust. I wanted to give up. I was so close to give up.” Rania hugged Eli a little bit tighter. “But, Maximus stopped me…. He saved me. We saved each other…”

“I am scared…” Eli finally admitted it.

“I know. I was scared too… it was not easy when the first time I was with Maximus. It was not easy for me to open up and there were a lot of misunderstanding between us. He hurt me a lot and I did the same thing too, but… I believe in miracle and the mate bond that the moon goddess blesses us with.”

“I don’t think I can do it, my queen…” Eli said, her voice was very weak, she was heartbroken and was in pain.

She wanted to trust Eiten that he wouldn’t leave her, that he wouldn’t hurt her, but it was not easy. Deep down, she knew he wouldn’t do it, but this fear gnawing her from inside and she felt suffocated. The more she wanted to trust him, the more she feared it.

There was no problem with Eiten, it was her who didn’t know how to accept kindness and love. She was the problem here and Eli was afraid that the mate bond was not strong enough for Eiten to face her.

*People in this kingdom doesn’t believe in mate bond. What if… what if Eiten is tired of me? What if Eiten doesn’t want me anymore?” Eli couldn’t stop her tears. “What should I do if he leaves? I don’t think I will be able to survive. If… if… I end it now… maybe it will not be that hard… maybe it will be bearable.”

Eli was scared if she opened up to Eiten and gave herself to him, in the end, he got sick of her and then left… what then? How she could make him stay when she knew he deserved someone better.

“Eiten deserves someone better, he deserves someone, who is not broken.” Eli bit her lip, the thought of Eiten was with someone else broke her from inside. She didn’t want to think about it. She didn’t even want to imagine it, but the image kept coming into her mind without her being able to stop it. “I don’t deserve him.”

Rania shook her head. “No, Eli. If it is not you, he will not want anyone else. It’s you that he wants.”

Eli wanted to believe that, she really did.

“Give him a chance. Give him a chance to prove himself that he deserves you.” Rania rubbed Eli’s back because she was crying uncontrollably at this moment. “Give yourself a chance to accept love, protection and peace. Give yourself a chance to heal, Eli. I know this is not easy. It is not easy at all, I almost gave up a few times, but you have to believe that you are going to make it. I have gone through that and I make it to the other end, you are going to go through it too and you will be fine in the end.”

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Chapter 291

“Will I be able to feel that way?”

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“Yes, of course.” Rania said, a little bit excited. Eli asked her, it was a good sign, so Rania wouldn’t waste it. “Five years from now or ten years from now, you will look back and you will see how far you have gone. You will be grateful with yourself that you manage to go through all of that.” Rania kissed Eli’s forehead “The end of the journey will be worth it. Trust me.”

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Eiten felt like his head was going to explode, because he didn’t know what they were talking about inside the room. He couldn’t eavesdrop because they were too far from the door, but he didn’t dare to interrupt the conversation, he was afraid it would ruin whatever plan that Rania had to Eli come with him the capital city of the Barlukan Kingdom.

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