The Salvation Knights MC Jinx's Mistake (by KJ) novel Chapter 55

Chapter 55: Pillow Talk

Jinx’s P.O.V.

I feel like I’m on cloud nine. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this relaxed before. Definitely never in my adult life.

Se.x with Deidra was a million times better than I could have ever imagined. She was so fucking eager. So tight. Very wet. A fu.cking dream. Being inside her made my entire body tingle. I can’t believe I lasted as long as I did, but fu.ck, I wish I could have gone longer. Or that I had more condoms. I only had that one because it was in my wallet, which was on the bedside table.

Even though I’d planned to take this fake relationship seriously from the get-go, I wasn’t even thinking about condoms. Not that I didn’t have hopes of fu.cking Deidra’s brains out. Condoms just… didn’t cross my mind.

Which is just fu.cking crazy. Condoms are always the first thing on my mind when it comes to se.x.

I’d never fu.ck a girl without one. Glory fu.cking poked holes in one and taught me to always make sure I got my own and to never let a woman get her hands on it afterward either. Some of these women are in-fu.cking-sane.

But Deidra is different. I’d be more likely to try to knock her up than her trying some sh.it on me.

Hell, part of me almost wants to. Because then she can never leave me. Then, I could make her move in with us right away. Then, she’d feel more secure about her relationship with Waylen. I can’t think of a single bad thing about Deidra being pregnant with my child.

Other than that, she would be fu.cking furious and probably freak out. Especially if I knocked her up so quickly. Besides, she didn’t even want to fu.ck me raw. She said it, but I think she meant it in an emotional way. I could see her clearly panicking when I tried to subtly ask if I really needed protection. However, I could also see her thinking about it too.

I’ve laid it out on the table though. All I have to do now is make sure we don’t get caught up in the moment. I don’t ever want Deidra to ever regret anything with me. If I have to be the strong one, then so be it. I just hope she doesn’t test me too much. I will break for a begging Deidra Hartman.

“Can I ask you something?” Deidra said, softly breaking the comfortable silence in the room. We were snuggling now, completely naked and under the covers. My girl said she just wanted to lay like this for a while before getting dressed, so my son doesn’t bust in on us naked in the morning.

Can’t say I’ve ever snuggled after se.x before, but I kind of like it. Deidra is relaxed and plastered to my side with her beautiful naked body. She’s been drawing patterns on my chest too. It’s been the most fu.cking relaxing thing in the world.

“Anything, Tulip,” I replied, kissing the top of her head.

Fu.ck, I love the way Deidra looks after se.x. Her hair is a se.xy mess of curls. She’s not flushed

anymore, but I swear she’s glowing. And I’ve never seen her so at ease before.

“Uhm, w-when we get back… w-we’re still going to be serious about this…” she trailed off.

“That doesn’t sound like a question, Gardenia,” I teased her.

“Well, I was just, uhm, wondering, I guess,” she said, stumbling over her words as she continued to draw patterns on my chest. “I know that there are women who live at the clubhouse… Like Honey and Glory… I liked Honey a lot, but, uhm, well, I was just wondering w-what the other girls are like. Are they cool and laid-back and a girl’s girl like Honey? Or are they like Glory?”

Ah, sh.it, what a way to kill the mood. I didn’t even think about having to explain the club bunnies to Deidra. I’ve never had to explain myself to anyone before, not even Glory. And how exactly am I supposed to tell Deidra not to worry about the practically naked women who prance around the club all day and openly try to fu.ck us all on a daily basis? I’d go ballistic if sh.it was the other way around, and doesn’t that make me a hypo.crite?

“Look Brix,” Deidra said with a sigh when I was clearly hesitant to reply. “I’m just wondering what to expect when we get back. Is someone going to try fighting me? Will I get bullied? Do I have to… worry about you being faithful?”

“What? No, baby never,” I rushed out. I blew out a breath, figuring it was best to just be honest. I reached down to gently pinch Deidra’s chin and lift her face to look at me. She wouldn’t at first, but I waited until those bright hazel eyes met mine. “I will never lie to you, Wisteria. Ever,” I started. “That being said, we do have a handful of club bunnies. I’ve slept with all of them, including Honey. Just like the majority of the brothers in the club, not that it really makes a difference. But you have nothing to worry about baby. I promise.”

“Nothing?” she asked skeptically.

I sighed before continuing.

“You’ve seen how they dress around town,” I said. “It’s worse at the clubhouse. They fu.ck the brothers daily, and out in the open most of the time. But there are two reasons you’ll never have to worry. One: I am and always will be, faithful to you. would never, ever betray you like that, Deidra. Never. I wouldn’t be with you if I wasn’t 100% sure that you were all I wanted. I promise you that as long as you want me, I’m only yours babe. And two the girls we got now don’t fuck with taken brothers. They know better.”

“Know better?” She asked with her face adorably scrunched up

“Back when we were kids, the club bunnies used to start a lot of sh.it.” I told her. “They caused a lot of fu.cked up situations with the brothers and the ladies. It caused a lot of heartbreak. Which, growing up there, we got to see firsthand. War did away with that petty sh.it the moment he took over. Any situation that arose was investigated fairly. He made it very clear what was expected from the club girls, and it wasn’t drama. That’s why we have so few girls now. And trust me, they’re all girls’ girls like Honey.”

Deidra seemed to think about that for a moment.

“So, does that mean Waylen was really an accident?” she asked. “Since Glory still lived there for a while? I always thought she trapped you, and you were just an idiot.”

I snorted at that, rolling my eyes dramatically at her

“She tried to,” I said, remembering when I found out the truth. “I thought it was an actual accident at first, but I had no intention of claiming her. Which was what she wanted. That sh.it became more apparent the longer she didn’t get my patch. Then, one day, I overheard her telling another club bunny that she had poked holes in the condom we used. I put her in her place after that, making sure she knew that she was only getting treated slightly better than the other girls because she was the mother of my child. Which meant that she stayed at the clubhouse for free without

having to pull her weight.”

“Pull her weight?” Deidra asked.

“The club bunnies are there mostly for protection, ar because they have nowhere else to go,” I told

her. “We don’t keep them there to sleep with them. They cook and clean the clubhouse in

exchange for food and a roof over their heads. Everything else is just benefits. And War offers

extra work and pays them cash under the table. He also offers support if they ever want to leave.”

“Oh…” She said, clearly surprised. “War seems so… stoic. I’m not saying I ever thought he was a bad guy or anything, but I didn’t realize that he cared so much.”

“We’re called the Salvation Knights for a reason, baby,” I said teasingly.

“What’s your job at the club?” She asked. “Can I ask that?”

I chuckled at her as she rested her head on my chest, looking at me in wonder.

“I can’t always tell you everything, but my official job is as the club’s lawyer,” I told her.

“You’re really a lawyer? Like for real?” She asked with a laugh.

I gave her a flat look, making her giggle.

“Worked my ass off to become one,” I said. “I wanted to be helpful to the club. War does his best to keep the club clean. I wanted to help with that. Plus, I wanted to be able to give Waylen a good life. Kinda backfired on me for a while though.”

“How so?” she asked.

“Well, that was most of the reason why I never knew what Glory was up to,” I replied. “I didn’t trust her as a person, but I trusted her as a mother. I saw Waylen as much as I could, but I was just so

busy and tired from studying long hours. I still worked for the club in other ways too at the time. I thought it would all be worth it when I passed the bar exam. I feel like I failed him as a father though.”

It hurt to admit it, but it was a truth I’ve already faced. Things got harder after I found out the truth and took care of Glory though. Waylen finally told me all about what his mother had really been up

I’ve never hit a woman before, but putting a bullet between Glory’s eyes was something I

relished. We didn’t beat her, but we fu.cked with her before I finally ended it. Kidnapped her, had her tied up for days. It was a mental game. And then I told her how I knew the truth now and how she almost fu.cking killed our son by neglecting him. The bit.ch didn’t even care about what happened to Waylen. She just cried and begged for her life. Even told me that she’d disappear and

never come back for Waylen. I made sure that she never could though.

I don’t regret a damn thing about that day. The only regrets I have are that I didn’t notice sooner, and that I gave Waylen such a shi.tty mom. He should have been Deidra’s. But I guess he kind of is now.

“You didn’t fail him, Brixton,” Deidra said softly. “You didn’t know. I don’t blame you either. I mean, Glory is a special kind of monster. And when you found out the truth, you handled it and never looked back. Now you’re way more present. Nothing like that would ever happen again. Waylen

knows that he can trust you with the truth. And you try so damn hard every day. You’re a great man

Brix, and a wonderful father.”

I smiled at her as warmth spread through my chest.

“That means a lot coming from you,” I said, rolling over to wrap her in my arms.

“I’ve been very ignorant,” she replied, giving me a pouty look.

“Nah baby, you just have some killer momma-bear instincts,” I told her.

“Hey Brix,” she whispered.

“Yeah baby?” I replied in the same tone.

“Pull her weight?” Deidra asked.

“The club bunnies are there mostly for protection, ar because they have nowhere else to go,” I told her. “We don’t keep them there to sleep with them. They cook and clean the clubhouse in exchange for food and a roof over their heads. Everything else is just benefits. And War offers extra work and pays them cash under the table. He also offers support if they ever want to leave.”

“Oh…” She said, clearly surprised. “War seems so… stoic. I’m not saying I ever thought he was a bad guy or anything, but I didn’t realize that he cared so much.”

“We’re called the Salvation Knights for a reason, baby,” I said teasingly.

“What’s your job at the club?” She asked. “Can I ask that?”

I chuckled at her as she rested her head on my chest, looking at me in wonder.

“I can’t always tell you everything, but my official job is as the club’s lawyer,” I told her.

“You’re really a lawyer? Like for real?” She asked with a laugh.

I gave her a flat look, making her giggle.

“Worked my ass off to become one,” I said. “I wanted to be helpful to the club. War does his best to keep the club clean. I wanted to help with that. Plus, I wanted to be able to give Waylen a good life. Kinda backfired on me for a while though.”

“How so?” she asked.

“Well, that was most of the reason why I never knew what Glory was up to,” I replied. “I didn’t trust her as a person, but I trusted her as a mother. I saw Waylen as much as I could, but I was just so busy and tired from studying long hours. I still worked for the club in other ways too at the time. I thought it would all be worth it when I passed the bar exam. I feel like I failed him as a father though.”

It hurt to admit it, but it was a truth I’ve already faced. Things got harder after I found out the truth and took care of Glory though. Waylen finally told me all about what his mother had really been up

I’ve never hit a woman before, but putting a bullet between Glory’s eyes was something I

relished. We didn’t beat her, but we fu.cked with her before I finally ended it. Kidnapped her, had her tied up for days. It was a mental game. And then I told her how I knew the truth now and how she almost fu.cking killed our son by neglecting him. The bit.ch didn’t even care about what happened to Waylen. She just cried and begged for her life. Even told me that she’d disappear and

never come back for Waylen. I made sure that she never could though.

I don’t regret a damn thing about that day. The only regrets I have are that I didn’t notice sooner, and that I gave Waylen such a shi.tty mom. He should have been Deidra’s. But I guess he kind of is now.

“You didn’t fail him, Brixton,” Deidra said softly. “You didn’t know. I don’t blame you either. I mean, Glory is a special kind of monster. And when you found out the truth, you handled it and never looked back. Now you’re way more present. Nothing like that would ever happen again. Waylen

knows that he can trust you with the truth. And you try so damn hard every day. You’re a great man

Brix, and a wonderful father.”

I smiled at her as warmth spread through my chest.

“That means a lot coming from you,” I said, rolling over to wrap her in my arms.

“I’ve been very ignorant,” she replied, giving me a pouty look.

“Nah baby, you just have some killer momma-bear instincts,” I told her.

“Hey Brix,” she whispered.

“Yeah baby?” I replied in the same tone.

“Thank you,” she said, giving me a look that screamed something I was afraid to name. “From holding me while I broke down about my parents, to always secretly protecting me, and giving me the best Christmas I’ve had in years. Thank you, truly.”

“Expect it from now on, baby, because I am never letting you go,” I promised her.

This really is turning out to be the best fu.cking Christmas ever, holding me while I broke down about my parents, to always secretly protecting me, and giving me the best Christmas I’ve had in years. Thank you, truly.”

“Expect it from now on, baby, because I am never letting you go,” I promised her.

This really is turning out to be the best fu.cking Christmas ever,