Passionate Devotion: Master Fudd's Beloved Wife novel Chapter 1108

Kelly had been acquainted with Yanny for over two months now and she has never seen Yanny lose control of her emotions before. In Kelly’s eyes, Yanny was always a logical and sensible girl. Always.

Kelly lifted Yanny’s chin and said teasingly, “I’ve never seen you like this. It looks like you really like the boyfriend back at home, seeing you were so upset that you missed his birthday.”

Yanny was still infuriated, so she did not not back down as she bluntly said, “A working robot like you would never understand.”

Yanny came to Hollywood to better herself, to make herself stronger, and also for Shayne, so how could she not be upset when she missed her chance and excuse to contact him?

She was not a person who could easily put her ego aside and look for Shayne. She needed an excuse to contact Shayne and his birthday was the perfect excuse.

However, such a perfect opportunity for her had been single-handedly destroyed by Kelly.

Even if Yanny had a stable personality, she would still cry because she was angry and felt helpless. It was because she was insignificant and not strong enough, so she could not simply see the person she misses whenever she wanted to.

To put it more accurately, Yanny was angrier at herself, rather than at Kelly.

She loathed her powerless self.

If she could, she did not want to sob over the phone. She wanted to buy an overnight flight ticket to see Shayne. Then, she wanted to smile and tell him, "Happy Birthday, Jordan.”

However, she could not even do such a simple and easy task.

Yanny’s tears kept falling.

Kelly smiled and looked at her. She said, “Hollywood’s weather is great, and even the night skies are clear. The stars are bright. Why don’t you look up at the night sky rather than crying with your head low?”

Yanny was in no mood to listen to her false claims.

Kelly continued, “You said I’m a cold workaholic robot, but no one was born a robot. I was once young too. I was also just like you once, wanting to fly back home from other countries, climbing over hills and crossing rivers, just to celebrate a boyfriend’s birthday. I have done all these impulsive things before.”

Kelly recalled her childish past and said, “The first two years when I came to Los Angeles, I was not familiar with the place or culture. I would bow to every Hollywood star I meet until I almost broke my hip. Things like bowing do not apply here. I have skipped work to fly back and celebrate my boyfriend’s birthday before, but I was yelled at terribly by my boss. I even lost an artist’s gig. The restaurant I booked for my boyfriend’s birthday was crowded, and we could not get a table. I felt cornered as if the skies were about to fall on me.

“I told myself then that if I wanted to be free, I have to become stronger. If you want to be free and unfettered or you want to meet the person you miss at any moment, you need to have enough power. If not, it would be a mess as nothing would be done well.”

Yanny wiped away her tears and gradually listened to Kelly’s words. She asked hoarsely, “Freedom? When I achieve freedom and lose the man I love, I won't know if I have made the right choice then.”

“However, if you would really think that it was the wrong choice, you would not have come to Hollywood. You could just do well in the entertainment industry back at home, but there was nothing wrong with stepping up your game. This was your own choice, so no matter if it were right or wrong, you would have to willingly accept it.

“If you didn't want to come here, you would not have met me and we would not be having this conversation right now. In life, there are many decisions you cannot define whether it was right or not. However, if you picked this path, this must be what you wanted, and something that you wanted to do. Even if you do not do it now, you would still do it in the future. That would justify your choice even if there was no right or wrong.”

Yanny’s confusion slowly faded away.

“Yanny, the truth is, working hard and enjoying temporary solitude is not that hard. Think about how you can slowly be the person you want to be in the future. You'd be able to meet the person you love easily anytime and do the things you love without any pressure. If you think about it, just endure it a little and it will be all over soon. You’ve already started, so don’t stop halfway now and fall short here.”

Yanny looked at Kelly and her tears started falling again while her nose was twitching uncontrollably. She then spoke with reddened eyes, “But, two years is a very long time. I have only been here for two months and I felt like I’m about to die thinking about him. I have never missed a person so badly before as even previously, I'll only be gone for eight or nine months and I won't be so out of control. I guess because I was certain that he would wait for me. Kelly, I’m not so sure now. I’m not sure if he would wait for me. Two years is a long time and it feels like there would be no outcome.”

Yanny could not stop crying while her shoulders trembled.

“On one hand, I allowed him to wait for me. On the other hand, I told myself sensibly that even I’m not sure if I could return in two years. Why should I make him wait for me anyway? The adult world should be decisive and logical. No one should be made to wait, and no one should be wasted away. Things are always unpredictable. I should say goodbye to him sensibly. However, I’m too selfish, and I can’t do it. I could not even wish him a happy birthday. I have never felt so frustrated. I realize now that I can't do everything by myself."

This was the first time Yanny felt frustrated due to her helplessness. She felt that she had messed up her life.

It was clear that she initially had the upper hand when she left Shayne and she was convinced so. However, she underestimated how much Shayne meant to her.

It was only then that Yanny was shocked to realize that a person who was hopeless in love like her, would one day love someone so much.