Resurrection novel Chapter 5

Xavier Black's pov

Fear

The only feeling I want everyone to have for me.

You can call me a sadist because I truly like to cause people pain

It brings a kind of satisfaction to me and now I am addicted to it.

Those who face my wrath curse me from the depths of their heart.

But it dosen't matter to me.

Their words are nothing when I know that my birth itself was a curse.

I was not meant to be born

My birth itself was a curse which made me loose my mother.

She was supposed to live while I should have died in her womb but when moon goddess controls your arrival and demise we are just puppets in her hands.

It's not that my father dosen't love me.

No ,instead he is the only one who truly loves me but when I see him hold my mothers picture and cry for hours ,I can't help but hate myself for his pain.

Others hate me and I don't have a problem with that, because I also hate myself.

But,

Those beautifull blue eyes of my mate can't hate me.

I will not let them hate me.

I need her more than anything since the day I first saw her innocent blue eyes looking at me.

It was truly love at first sight, as cliche it sounds but this is true.

I was spellbound on seeing them

That was the first time I thought that moongoddess dosen't really curse me as she mated me with her.

But before I could see her face and mark her as  mine

She left

Just like the way she came

I could see her taking small steps away from me

Her eyes held worry and fear

While mine held love and care

Distance between us continued to increase and my only hope of having a mate continued to decrease.

I was too late,

She vanished before I could hold my angel again.

Leaving me devastated with her captivating blue eyes as the only trail.

She had no scent which was rare.

I didn't even feel those sparks which people say are felt on touching.

The only evidence which proved that she was my mate were those electric blue eyes which were rarest of rare.

I searched for her like a madman.

My majority of forces were assigned to search her .

To search those electric blue eyes

But it was as impossible as it sounded

I had lost my only hope in life

I lost my mate

Days passed

Her eyes still envaded my dreams

Her touch could still be sensed by me

But that was all

She was gone

I entered rosewood school to continue my training.

When I entered ,everyone bowed on recognising me

All the sounds died wherever I went.

This was the fear I was talking about.

And it really felt good

My Beta Eric made his way towards me.

Other than Dad he was the only one who feared me but still loved me and I

also trusted him blindly.

But trust comes when you know a person since birth and he has never ever deceived you in any way.

As we entered my first class everyone was standing looking down in respect and fear except one

That black haired girl was looking at me with a shocked look on her face .

She was so lost that she forgot to acknowledge my presence and look down in respect.