Together Forever novel Chapter 39

Evelyn's POV

It is already night and I haven't gotten out of my room since this morning's incident. Currently, I'm sitting on the balcony staring at the starry night sky, something I do whenever I get tired of the emotional burdens. The peaceful look of the dark enormous sky always calms me down and I don't know why.

Never had I thought one day would come when I would be brawling my mind because of a guy. I always stayed away from guys but this time I didn't have any control over myself when I got attached to Ethan.

God, what will I do now?

Even after everything, should I give Ethan a chance? Everyone deserves to love and like anything else, people do change too. I don't know anything much about him. Maybe he didn't get anyone in his life who could teach him what love is. Probably he didn't ever get love. That's why he's the way he's now. If I think like this, my heart wants to give him a chance to prove himself.

But my mind interrupts. What if in the process of making him happy, I end up finishing every bit of happiness in my life?

I just don't know what to do now.

I sigh as I close my eyes but my thoughts get disrupted by a knock on the door.

I open my eyes immediately and get off of the couch. I have to face him now. Living under the same roof, I can't keep ignoring him.

I enter the room and walk towards the door before opening it.

There standing Ethan in his all-time sexy messy hair and kinda disheveled state. I budge my head indicating him to speak.

He eyes me carefully before saying, "Evelyn, you didn't eat anything after today morning."

I would lie if I say I didn't get a bit surprised. Since when I-don't-give-a-fuck-about-anything Mr. Ethan Jones started to worry about if someone has eaten or not?

"Uh… I don't feel like eating now." I say as I see his face falling.

"Oh."

"Good night," I say as I proceed to close the door since I don't really want to talk to him now but Ethan holds the door with his hand stopping me.

He has a pleading look on his face as he says, "Can I come inside?" Looking into my eyes, he adds, "Please?"

This man for sure knows how to melt my cold frosted heart. Now how am I supposed to say no though I am kinda mad at him?

Sighing I nod and hold the door open for him. After he comes inside, I close it and turn around. Instead of getting on the bed, he walks towards the balcony and I follow him. He sits on the couch and then looks behind at me and pats the place beside him.

I move forward and sit myself down while he keeps staring at me.

I lean back and look up at the sky again, Ethan's eyes still on me. After sitting in silence for a few minutes, he calls me,

"Evelyn?"

I look at him, "Yes?"

"I...I want to tell you something." He says nervously and I nod, knowing exactly what he wants to say.

"About Karla… I'm so sorry. When she was with me, I was a completely different guy who didn't care about relationships. But now I'm not like this. I know I'm not a good guy but I'm trying to be. I don't even know why Karla appeared here today. I know you're upset about this whole matter. I'm sorry." He says with a sad look on his face.

"Ok...if Karla wasn't anything anymore, then why did you kiss her at the mall days ago?" I ask, raising an eyebrow.

He looks away as he replies, "It was because I… actually I was angry at you seeing you with...uh Nick. I thought he was your boyfriend and then..." He trails off.

"Then he was so fucking close to you. So I lost my shit and kissed her." He shouts. "But I know I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry." He whispers again.

I nod my head suppressing the smile on my face at his stupidity.

"But why are you even telling me all this? I clearly told you before you don't owe me an explanation." I shrug.

His jaw clenches as he answers in a high voice, "I do. I do owe you to tell you every freaking thing that happened in my life because you have the right to know."

"And why is that?"

"Because you are my-"

I indicate to him to finish what he wanted to say but then he looks away and sighs.

"Nothing. Can we please stop talking about it? This shit already ruined my day." He says, irritated.

"Ok." I shrug.

He pauses for a moment and looks down, "But I'm really sorry."

"It's ok Ethan. You don't have to be sorry." I reply, smiling while he inspects my face.

He comes closer as he hesitantly takes my left hand in his. I shiver slightly as his hand touches mine. He rubs his palm slowly on my hand looking down before squeezing it faintly. And then looks up meeting my eyes, his face has a soft look.

"Evelyn, I know you can't believe me right away but I'm really trying to change. Those kisses weren't fake, neither were those three words. I meant it. I know what happened today made you skeptical about our relationship but I…"