Be My Mate novel Chapter 5

Sabrina's POV

A few days have gone by and I've kept myself busy with planning the ball plus training. Xander asked for some time alone, to think and clear his head...

I don't agree with the time apart but I'll give him whatever he wants. I can't force him to do anything he isn't comfortable with but I miss him so much.

"Then go see him..." My mother says walking in my room.

"Get out of my head mother." I say in annoyance and she just ignores me.

"Are you ready for your father and daughter dance?" She asks me and I nod my head yes. Hunter and I are finally in a good place so I am actually looking forward to share a dance with him.

"I just wish I could be more excited about the night. This will probably be the biggest night of my life and I won't be able to enjoy it with Xander." I say as a wave of sadness washes over me.

"Was it easy? To leave dad behind with all of us?" I ask looking straight in to my mother's eyes.

"No. It wasn't." She responds.

"My situation is different little moon. I left Christopher to go back to my true mate. You are choosing your chosen mate over your true mate." She says to me and I mentally groan.

"I know he's my true mate, I feel it. I feel the pull but I've gotten so used to fighting it that I'm willing to keep going at it if it means I get to stay with Xander." I say.

"So you're saying you would rather go through so much pain just to stay with Xander? Does he know what you are going through?" She asks and I shake my head no.

"I don't even know what I'm going through. One day my head wants to explode with constant thoughts of him, yearning for him. Some other days my heart breaks over and over again just being far from him but my love for Xander heals my aches and pains." I say and mother let's out a sigh.

"Sabrina, you are using Xander as a bandaid for your glass heart. The pieces will always remain broken and even if you put it together, you won't heal. You will never heal until you are with your true mate. It is actually unfair to Xander, as he is giving you all of him and he's really not getting much of you." Mother says to me.

"That's not true!" I shout out and my mother brushes my arm.

"Sabrina, you belong to someone else. He knows it and it's about time you accepted it. You tried it your way and even though you're the moon goddess, there are some things you just can't control." She tells me and tears prick my eyes.

"You are forcing yourself to love him Sabrina. There's nothing good about that..." Mother says to me and the tears fall down my face.

"Then what do I do?" I ask and she smiles at me.

"Give him a second chance mate. Find him a woman that deserves him and one that will make him happy." She says to me and I pull away from my mother, standing up.

"I will not be doing that." I say. This woman was clearly out of her mind!

"So you're just going to leave him? Leave him to die without an heir? Don't be selfish! Put on your big girl panties and do right by that man, he deserves that." Mother says to me.

I fall back on my chair, shame taking over me.

"I hate him." I say. Thinking of Aiden and his pretty face.

"You want to hate him. It's time you admitted your feelings for him, to yourself. There's no need to fight them anymore Sabrina.." Mother tells me as she walks away from me, stopping at my door.

"Aiden is a good kid, don't force yourself to hate him. He doesn't deserve that either because he did not choose you, fate did." She says to me before leaving me to my thoughts.

Aiden.

Just the mere thought of him makes me giddy and I hate it!

'She's right you know. I stood by you when you decided to choose Xander but we can't let him die. Give him the love he deserves before someone kills him and we both know he will let them just to escape the misery of losing you...' Athena says to me and I groan out loud.

I stomp my way out of my office and out of the castle, leaving for earth. To look in to Xander's eyes one last time and tell him how I really feel. I want to feel his arms around me one last time.

Arriving at the arena, I notice Xander's door was broken and I rush in to see two bodies fighting.

Pulling them apart by throwing the stranger on top of Xander, who felt strangely too strong for an earthling and then it hit me, the attacks have started.

Athena releases her power before wrapping her hand around his neck.

Hitting his head on the wall and again, hitting his head on the wall as he suffocates, clawing at my hand to let him go.

"Sabrina, stop." Xander says and I drop the stranger running to Xander's aid.

I heal him immediately without thinking. Not paying attention that the stranger had long run off without asking him any questions.

"It's started..." I say to myself but out loud. Xander looks at me in confusion.

"What's started?" He asks.

"The attacks on your life." I say cupping his face with my one hand. I knew now that my mother was right and I have to do right by Xander.

If he dies now, he will leave the pack with no alpha, no heir. Adrastos might take over but he's part of the first family and goddess knows what's in store for him.

I help Xander up before stepping back from him. I need to look at him, in all his shirtless glory one last time.

A knock interrupts my perverted mind, snapping me out of it.

"I know you need to go out there now but please don't die on me. Just give me one more night with you, one last night in your arms and then you can let me go. I can't force you to go against everything you believe in and being with you is putting your life in danger so please just give me one more day okay?" I ask looking in to his eyes.

He takes a moment, looking at me with so much love my knees wanted to give out. I walk up to him, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him in for a very passionate kiss.