Ditched Cheating Alpha, I Led My Daughter to Life's Peak novel Chapter 83

I nearly drop my toothbrush. Will our relationship completely depend on me wearing red things for the rest of my life? I tighten my grip and keep brushing, but the look of horror doesn't leave my face. It's like I just daydreamed a nightmare.

I like to think I'm the fitter brother or the taller one, but that's not true. I look at my own chest. My shoulders. My waist. Then I look at Axel. What would set me apart from my brothers to someone who hasn't lived in this body for eighteen years? Who could know I'm really me... but me?

Axel raises an eyebrow. "Everything okay?"

I nod and look the other way, spitting into the sink. I rinse my mouth and look back up. There goes those amber eyes again. I wonder what Mia sees when she looks at them, looks at me. I see myself. I'd never mix myself up with one of my brothers in a picture or in a reflection, but maybe when Mia looks at me she just sees Aiden or Axel. What if she never even considers me?

I look at Axel again running something through his hair.

... Nah, I smile to myself. She probably just sees three of me. The real Carson, Carson imitation one, and Carson imitation two. That thought eases my growing tension. It might help me sleep at night, because lately I've been having some real nightmares.

Last night, I dreamt that I was in The Hunger Games. Axel was Peeta. Aiden was Gale. Guess who I was? Guess.

... Finnick Odair. Finnick? He wasn't even in the running for Katniss' affection! And you know what she did to him in the end? I don't give a damn if it was merciful. That better not happen to me!

I glare at Axel in the mirror. These damn nice guy, bread boy wannabes stealing the show for us more humble men. I was just a guy with a trident. I was just a man in love. I deserved better.

"You sure you're alright?" Axel asks again.

I nod, walking back towards the room. When I'm passing him, I catch a whiff of something. I snap my head towards him. "Did... did you use my body wash?"

"Yeah...?" He raises an eyebrow.

I nearly lose my shit. "Why would you do that?" Is this sabotage?

He looks at me like I've lost my mind. "Mine ran out. What's the problem?"