My Mate Had A Girlfriend novel Chapter 79

"Yes, yes he did. I'm fine now, am I not?" I tried to joke.

"Yeah, I take that you're not angry at Eddie anymore. I'm not supposed to be telling anybody about this but I'm telling you. The reason he was very angry at you that night was because we were getting on it when someone called because there were commotions. So actually, the reason he was angry was not you but because he wasn't getting it," Celina laughed and I joined her but after a while, our laughter died down. I knew whatever it was; I had to be the one to apologize to Eddie. He's my brother after all.

"So, I heard that Mr Mate brought you back home. Have you finally, accepted him fully? Celina asked as she moved closer to me on the bed and I sense some hesitance in her question. Everyone knew it was a very sensitive question.

"I don't know..." I finally said.

"Why?"

"You know about the nightmares that I was getting when I just returned here? It came back when I was at Brody's and it only stopped when Calvin is around. So I believe it's just something got to do with us being mates and we shouldn't be away from each other but I don't know."

"To be honest, I'm really tired of being away from him. I knew, whatever it was we're gonna come back to each other because we're mates and we practically need each other to live. I know I need him but it's just that I couldn't find myself able to open up to him. Every time I did, I remembered other things like Valerie. I know, it's wrong of me to keep blaming on Valerie but I just cannot trust this relationship because I feel scared that I still need to compete with her to get to the top of Calvin's heart."

"I want to love him. I want to have a proper relationship but I cannot do it when my heart is still feeling doubtful towards everything else."

I knew I could trust Celina. Even though she was older than me, it was really easy to talk to her if I couldn't find Sally. Plus, Celina being someone elder actually usually gave me the best advice.