Fated To Three Betrayed By All Until She Rose (Leilani) by Ahvahh novel Chapter 204

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204 I don’t care!

Leilani.

It took several minutes- if not hours- before I was able to calm Jarek down, and after successfully convincing him over and over again that I wasn’t hurt that he’d ‘hit’ me… that I could never be mad at him, he finally slept off with his large arms wrapped around my stomach, while I could only stare at his peacefully sleeping form, wondering what I could do about his ailment.. and hoping to the goddess that he doesn’t wake up to another episode.

I do not know for how long I stayed there, listening to his heartbeat and soft snores, but by the time I finally came to again, I realized to my surprise that I was now in his bed, wrapped under the protection of his bedsheets. My jacket was long gone and so were my shoes… and Jarek who seemed to have disappeared without a trace.

I slowly rose to a sitting position and looked around the room, admiring the dark gray walls with white finishing. Everything in the room was a perfect blend of gray and white… well besides the chandelier which was a beautiful large black monster.

Just then, the door creaked open… and maybe it was because of everything I’d gone through these past few days and heard, but I found myself jumping in surprise. I turned swiftly to the sound, half-ready to lunge at whoever it was if it was a ‘threat’.

However, when the smell of scrambled eggs hit my nostrils instead, my tense

shoulders loosened.

I sighed; “Jay?”

His eyes lit up at my voice and I watched him quietly as he pushed into the room with a large tray in hand. Now, he looked different with his long hair styled into the messiest messy bun I’ve ever seen on anybody- which was also the hottest bun I have

ever seen as well…

Don’t ask me how that’s possible… I just know. 1

He also looked like he’d spent most of the last three hours showering just to throw on an apron at the last minute, which… *chuckles*…which had images of SpongeBob scattered all over it.

I smiled. “You cooked?”

“For you, yes!” He answered, and my breath caught when he placed the tray onto his reading table and then leaned over to plant a kiss on my forehead, his voice soft as he

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whispered the words; “Thank you.”

I frowned. I wanted to ask him what he was thankful for.

I wanted to know why he would do all of these for me.

But as soon as I opened my mouth to speak, he took my hands in his and plopped into the bed beside me. But something in his gaze told me that I would probably not like what he was about to say… something in the way he couldn’t look me in the eyes made my heart race.

My hands trembled slightly but because he held firmly, I was fine. And then he said softly; “I’ll be going away for a while.”

Goddess, I was right! I am always right!

My face fell. “Why?” I rasped, fighting against the urge to start crying immediately.

At my question, his frown deepened; And for a moment, he looked embarrassed, but then he sighed and looked away, pulling me into his arms.

This way, I could feel his chest pressing against mine. I could feel the steady thumping of his heart as it beat in sync with mine. I could feel his skin- soft and sturdy… his breath fanning my face… and I instantly knew for a fact that I never wanted to be away from him. That I always wanted to be by his side.

I tipped my head backward in such a way that my eyes now met his. And with a small voice, I asked; “Do you love me?”

Goddess, I do not know why I asked that. I do not know why the thought of being away from him filled me with so much panic that I had begun to spew gibberish.

My hands shot out to cup his face when he tried to look away and I whispered;

“Please… talk to me.”

Jay looked conflicted. He looked like something in my question had rattled him to no end. His eyes filled with emotions I couldn’t name… and there was this slight tremor in his hands- barely there but I had felt it.

When I put my hands on his face again, he flinched slightly, but quickly shook himself

out of it and smiled. “Leilani…”

“You don’t have to respond to it anymore if it makes you uncomfortable—” I began to say but stopped when he placed his index finger over my lips.

Sparks flew from that contact, and if it wasn’t for my self control, maybe I would’ve moaned in bliss. Maybe I would’ve instantly turned into a mini Chalice. I mean, we

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were twins after all!

I squeezed my eyes shut.

“I am not uncomfortable,” he drawled in that voice that felt like silk- smooth, velvety— it set my skin on fire. He whispered; “I just… I do not know how to say this Leilani, but for now, all I can tell you is that you mean the absolute world to me. You’re the reason I want to wake up every morning despite being scared of what the day would bring…”

“—Of what the day would bring?” I asked quietly, half expecting him to brush the question off. But to my utmost surprise, he nodded and squeezed my hands tightly.

“There’s a constant fear at the back of my mind… a voice that tells me that my present day may be my last day sane, and I’d die before I rope you into a world where there’s a constant: fear… plus maybe a bit of insecurity”

“But Jarek…”

“I almost hurt you, Leilani. In fact, I did. And I can never forgive myself for doing that. I can never forgive myself for breaching the safe haven I’ve always wished for you to be protected in. I love you Lani. Probably more than words could ever describe… And for you, I want to be better. I want to be healed-

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“And you want to… you know, leave… for it?” I finished for him, just as tears burned at the corners of my eyes.

He nodded. “Yes. But only for a short while-

“I can come with you.” I snapped, immediately interrupting him; And as soon as I did, his eyes widened. A sure slow smile spread across his face. One that he quickly contained before he shook his head again.

“No.”

“No?” I was stunned. “Why?”

“Because I’ve put you in charge of Frostclaw.Inc.” He said, causing my already aching heart to sink further into my guts.

Something about those words- which I suspected he had said in order to make me feel better-rattled me.

It made my heart race, but not in the: ‘butterflies in my tummy’ kind of way. Sweat pooled under my eyebrows, or maybe it was my tears, but I brushed it away and whispered; “Jay?”

But he wasn’t looking at me. He wasn’t responding either.

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And I knew… I just knew that his so-called short trip may not be a short one.

-And goddess, I didn’t like the sound of that. I didn’t want it to happen. So I did the one thing I could think of in this moment of desperation; I pulled him into a hug and kissed him, hoping that maybe my kiss could tell him the words I couldn’t say.

…and hoping that he at least changes his mind, and takes me with him. 5

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Happy new year my lovely readers, and thank you!

Ahvahh_

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