Get Back The Abandoned Luna (Scarlett and Alexander) novel Chapter 219

Chapter 219 Regret Taking It& Place

Chapter 219 Regrets Taking Its Place

Kathleen

Watching as the kids slept peacefully, I couldn’t help but sigh in relief but at the same time, both my mind and my heart were in turmoil that I don’t know what to do, whether I should take a short walk here inside the room, should I stretch, or take a bath, whatever… I couldn’t sit down and rest.

Knowing that Kane and Scarlett were out there to meet with Draco, my heart thumped even more that I couldn’t help but start thinking about what they were talking about, whether he had handed the divorced papers I signed and he decided to sign it for his peace of mind.

Just by the thought of it made my heart trembled from fear and pain. The stinging sensation of my heart snapped me from my thoughts.

I let out a soft mocking chuckle, rubbing my face with my palm. How could I not dare to imagine that he might not sign it after all the troubles I have done to him?

It was all my fault for leaving him easily. For giving him up. For giving up the relationship we had, thinking that if I left, he would be okay despite knowing that I, myself, wouldn’t be able to take it.

I have to improve myself too, to heal myself and do my best to stay healthy–to remain sober for him and for myself too. Otherwise, I would only end up hurting him despite that I didn’t mean too.

I couldn’t take the pressures that his elders and the pack had given to me. It made me started doubting whether if I’m a great fit to be his Luna.

They even started suggesting to me that if I can’t give them a heir, I should let go and let another Luna who could do so, have the Alpha.

Anger, irritation, pain, disappointments, hate, I couldn’t even determine what kind of feeling I felt that day. All of my emotions were clouding my reasoning that it made me stop using my head.

Out of anger, I had decided to end it all in one go.

They want another Luna who could give birth to the Alpha’s heir? Fine then.

I’ll leave.

Only to realize that I wasn’t thinking right.

I pressed my lips together until they trembled.

What do I do now?

It took me half a month to sober up. Half a month to stop drowning in guilt and self–blame. Half a month to realize that running away didn’t ease the pain–it only made it lonelier.

And now…

Now that my mind is clear, regret has taken its place.

I shouldn’t have left those bond severance papers.

I shouldn’t have signed them.

I shouldn’t have walked away.

Every night, when I close my eyes, the same nightmare comes.

I see him.

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He saw the papers I had left with my sign on. He looked at it with a calm and distant expression as if he was relieved to see

1. it.

Signing the papers without hesitation.

I watched as he signed his name written cleanly beneath mine that had already been signed.

And then he lifts his head–no anger, no sorrow–just emptiness.

As if I never existed.

As if I was never his Luna.

I wake up every time with my heart pounding violently against my ribs, like it’s trying to break free from my chest.

My hands shake.

My breathing turns shallow.

Chapter 219 Regrets Taking Its Place

And tears-

hey fall before | san stop them.

Tend up crying into the silence of the room, muffling my sobs in the pillow so no one would hear me.

Strangely…

It hurts the same when I was grieving the loss of our child–or even so painful from it that I don’t think I could even recover from it.

I’m afraid. I’m afraid that he might leave and cut me off despite the fact that it was me who decided to leave first.

I don’t know what to do. I tried my best earlier to not show my anxiousness, my fear, and all these negative thoughts that kept crawling from my head that made it hard for me to breath properly.

I don’t think I could live alone without him. I know, I had been staying here in the Nightshade and my condition was starting to heal… yet my mind keeps recalling my memories with Draco.

And the more I keep thinking about him, the more I was motivated to get out from the shadows that kept clawing at me, that keeps me from moving forward of my life.

I tried to fake my smiles.

I tried to act outgoing so no one would notice how much I was suffering inside.

But Scarlett noticed.

She always does.

She was the one who sat me down and talked to me about it.

When I finally told her about the pain I had been carrying–burying it so deeply, convincing myself it wouldn’t resurface–l thought that was the only way for me to heal.

I thought if I hid it well enough, it would disappear.

But I was wrong.

It didn’t disappear.

It only drowned me further.

And when I started talking to Scarlett about everything, I could feel my heart loosening.

As if something tight around my chest was slowly untying itself.

Every part of my body felt lighter.

The more I spoke, the more I breathed.

The more I breathed, the more I started to sober up.

And as I slowly became sober, clarity followed.

I began to realize that my actions weren’t right.

That leaving wasn’t strength.

That signing those papers wasn’t bravery.

All I had been doing was running away.

Running away from grief.

Running away from fear.

Running away from Draco.

From the very person who was willing to stand beside me and face everything together.

When I started realizing everything, it made me feel like I was the most foolish Luna in the world.

Draco didn’t give up on me and he too was grieving silently. He was always present whenever I needed him, whenever I wanted to feel his presence.

He’s always there.

But what in the world have I done?

I was too selfish. I left him alone and even signed the bond severance between us.

If… If he would ended up signing the bond severance like I did, I will chase after him. I will court him the way he did with me.

I will stay with him and be with him whether he would appreciate it or not.

Chapter 219 Regrets Taking Its Place

I will cart his love again.

that’s what I thought

Tbit my lips and was about to think futher of my plan if I ever found out that he had decided to cut me off his life–when heard the creaking sound of the door.

My heart thumped as I snapped back from my thoughts, turning my head to look at the person who arrived, thinking it was Scarlett and I would asked her about Draco.

However, it was Kane who arrived.

Kane’s eyes fell on me. “Why do you look disappointed?”

I rolled my eyes at him. “So it’s you.”

“Why? Disappointed that it’s not your mate who come here?” he teased with those calm looking of his.

I clicked my tongue and didn’t answer him. “Where’s Scarlett?”

“She’s currently to your mate who barged in the middle of the night,” Kane said as he went to pick up his training tools.

Hearing this, I pursed my lips. I started to wonder what they might be talking right now.

And I started regretting telling Scarlett to tell Draco that I won’t meet him tonight.

Damn it. I’m such a mess.

“You look like a frog.”

I paused, my eyes sharpened as I glared at him. “What did you say?!”

“You shouldn’t cry next time,” he calmly said, completely unaffected by my glare.

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