Together Forever novel Chapter 15

Sometimes something hurts us so badly but we don't even know why. And then it feels like that unknown reason hurts even deeper, with thousands times more power. When we don't know the answer to a question, it's alright. But when we try hard to understand what the question itself means but fail, that's unbearable. Because then we can't even try to find out the answer.

Failure is bad. Not even getting the chance to win is worse.

I know I am in pain. But when I don't know what is causing the pain, how will I find the cure?

I don't know why I am feeling like this. It's just that seeing them kissing hurts a bit. Maybe it hurts more than a bit.

I did know he is a player. He uses girls and throws them away. I knew everything. Leah told me, didn't she?

Then why am I feeling dizzy? Why does it feel like someone betrays me? Why am I blinking too much?

When Nick told me maybe Ethan feels something for me, I brushed it off. But did my subconscious mind begin to believe that? Is it why I am feeling betrayed now?

Or the answer is different?

Everything Ethan is doing, the reason behind his anger when he sees me with Nick, is it because he also feels the same way I am feeling right now?

Betrayed? Hurt? Angry? Disappointed? Heartbreak?

What is right?

What should I believe?

I didn't realize I was staring at them for too long when Nick shakes my hand. It's like I was in another world.

I look at him to see his hurtful face. He definitely didn't expect it was coming. He grips my hand tightly as if trying to console me. But why do I need that?

Just why?

DAMNIT!

"Evie, let's get out of here," Nick says slowly, holding my arm.

I don't answer. I am feeling too numb to do anything. He leads me to the exit and I just follow him. I don't dare to look back at them again.

When we get outside, I let out a huge breath I don't know I am holding.

Ethan kissed her...

How could he?

Who's that girl?

But why do I care?