0 Celsius: To thaw a frozen heart novel Chapter 31

When he broke

18 March 2017

I never deserved Andro

He is too good for me or I can say I am too bad for him.

I admit we have a connection very few can have.

A connection which soothes my anxious heart with just a mere touch of his fingers.

But this connection is good for me and a downfall for him.

His mother and his friends have made it clear to him.

They can predict his downfall with me at his side.

But he cannot

He is too adamant and independent to let others control his life.

He wants me and he has made this clear to everyone today.

He proposed to me today.

We haven't even dated but again he was not the kind of man who dated.

He never thinks what others think and does what he wishes to do.

He said he wanted me to be his if I permitted.

My answer...

Well why wouldn't I permit.

I would be a fool if I rejected his offer.

Being his wife I can live the life of a queen.

He will lay everything at my feet.

What else could a person desire.

Love

Yes people do get married for love ..I agree

But I don't know what love is.

Never experienced nor felt before...I was an amateur in that department.

He said he loves me

And I am sure he does but I couldn't return him his love when I don't know what it is.

So I lied to him...

I lied to make him happy....to see that smile on his face.

I lied that I also loved him.

And that's how he placed a beautiful diamond ring on my finger and captured my lips with claps of people in the background and drops of rain from above.

I must admit today was like a dream come true...

Like a story tale where the princess finds her Prince charming and they live happily ever after.

But the only difference was that I was a pauper not a princess and a happily ever after was next to impossible.

Especially since he came

Yes Neil came back

And he has made it clear that he will ruin my life.

He blocked my path in the market few days back and his face was enough to bring back an anxiety attack.

He held me while I had the attack...but his grip was no where like Andro's.

He was intentionally bruising my waist with his harsh grip.

I was wrangling in his grip but he was too strong.

His words made me freeze

"Never expected a bi*** like you to get a jackpot... Alessandro Romano huh....not at all bad....hope he loves you enough to give you what I want you to ask from him..."

He demanded cash...dollars...to keep his mouth shut.

Or he will tell Andro who I actually was.

I know I shouldn't be afraid because I never lied to Andro but I never told him the truth either.

I never told him that I was an orphan...I never told him that I lived in that part of the city where prostitutes and sluts lived...I never told him that his Sapphire Brown was a dark piece of coal and not a rare Sapphire.

Neil made it clear what all he can do...he told me clear enough that once he tells Andro his fake story Andro will not even want to see my face.

And I believed him...

I know I should trust Andro

I should not doubt his love for me.

But what if he believes Neil...

What if he considers me a slut...a gold digger....fake....

No I couldn't take the risk of making Andro doubt me.

Andro was too precious to me...I can't afford to loose him without loosing myself.

So I agreed to Neil...

I agreed to keep his mouth shut with thousands of dollars.

I agreed and I felt like I was actually committing a blunder.

Which I did commit.

21st April,2017

Numb...

That's what I feel right now....

I can't feel my feet or my arms...

I am here standing outside Andro's door...

Hoping he will open up the door.