My Secret, My Bully, My Mates (skylar) by Miss l Free novel Chapter 57

Chapter 0057
That last part hit me the hardest. That stupid f*cking motto my brother and his friends lived by. They let people think that only the strongest should survive. It was actually the way that they played when they did drills together. Last man standing and all that.

They taunted and teased each other for being the 'weakest' that day. The problem was they never explained that they were teasing and motivating each other to anyone.

They just said the stupid line and went about their lives not realizing who's listening and following their lead. They are oblivious to the influence they have without even trying.
I throw my covers off, I can't sleep. The memory just brings on more nightmares. I rub my eyes forcefully and look at the clock, it's 3am. The only thing is to run off the nervous energy now.
You want out tonight?
I thought you would never ask It's been a while. Hanging out with those boys hasn't given you as much free time since we are still hiding that you are special.
You Imowwhy we do, and it was your idea in the first place.

Let's get a couple miles out and then I will turn it over to you. Maybe I can get a bit of rest that way.
Whatever you need, I'm here for you. We got this, kiddo.
My wolf feels like an old soul. Almost like a cool aunt that gives me advice when I ask, but also lets me totally figure things out the hard way after instigating a less than intelligent idea. That used to come in the form of broken bones or other self inflicted injuries when I was trying some new defensive move. I can at least say I haven't injured myself in a long time.
I get my running gear on and tiptoe to the back door, hoping to not make a sound going out. I don't know if the guys went home or are still out partying. Maybe they each found a girl to entertain now that they didn't have to babysit me.

I spared one look at the twins' backyard as I ran towards the forest. I didn't hear any noises, but the garden lights were still on, who knows. I couldn't dwell on it though,

I have already decided to let them go. I'm not allowed to wonder what they are doing or who they're with. I can't want to be with them and keep my secret, that's not fair to them. The pack members are more important, they need to stay safe. That's the mission.

I made it to the edge of the forest and sat to put on my shoes. I couldn't risk tearing up my own feet and I can't shift here, someone could see or hear me. The transformation was not pleasant to go through or to watch, especially for a new shifter. Once you get the hang of it, you and your wolf can interchange pretty easily and quickly, but it takes a lot of practice.

How does Kaley always seem to find me with the guys? Even if it's not the twins, she manages to track me down and make things difficult and cause a scene, then I am attacked the next day. I wish they would at least get creative and find a way to hurt me at training.