Alpha of the Shadows (Lucianna) novel Chapter 7

Jacob’s POV

Fucking Hell!

I don’t want her! I don’t want her!

Stop rejecting my mate! You can’t! my wolf growled inside me.

Fucking shut up! I growled back at him.

I knew that I would never escape this mate bond, this was my fate. But how could I? How could I fucking accept her if I could see how weak she was?

That same gray shadow that I had been seeing in my own shadow, and what my mate possesses as well. Was I getting played by fate?

Lucianna…

She was amazing. A beauty beyond compare. Those big dolly eyes, sharp nose and plumped lips of her invites me, pulls me, seduces me. She don’t need any words, I would have grab her and took her the moment her eyes laid on mine.

But I couldn’t.

How could I?

I was an Alpha of the second strongest pack of the North but my shadow shows a gray color. I was weak, too.

We are not weak. My wolf said. He has been telling me the same words ever since I found out about my shadow eye ability.

Tell that to me when you can explain why our shadow were gray. I hissed. My wolf never knew the reason behind it, too. Both of us tried our best to be strong, to be what we were now, but we never knew why our shadows keep showing the same shade.

Gray. Gray was for the weak. I was weak, but where? What part of me was?

I sighed and closed my eyes.

I sensed Brent coming closer, he was my Beta.

“What do you want?”

“Why aren’t you spending time with your mate?” he asked, sitting on the space beside me.

I fucking feel like a child for running away, unwinding at the middle of the forest while the rest were enjoying their night with their mates.

I sighed instead of answering his question. I don’t want this conversation right now. I was still confused with my own thoughts.

The way I gave in to the bond’s pull earlier makes me curse myself over and over. The way I reacted only proved how weak I was to give in that fast from the mate bond.

Fuck-- I am not weak!

“Is she a weak one?” Brent continued to pry.

My jaw clenches as I was reminded by Lucianna’s shadow. Not just weak, I couldn’t even see other shade of emotions from her shadow.

What did she felt earlier? Was she turned on? Happy? Anything?

Her shadow was just a full gray in color, it was unbelievable that I was not able to see other of her feelings.

Brent was my Beta and he knew about the secret ability of my family. The Shadow Eye was not that necessary to brag about but for the sake of avoiding chaos, my family swore to keep it out of the crowd’s knowledge.

“I wonder why you kept on hating the weaklings. Is that the true use of the Shadow Eye?” Brent sighed, and I knew he was trying to reason out my reaction.

“Stop using your antics to me.”

“Enlighten me, then.”

I was not dumb to share with Brent that my shadow was gray, too. I had been showing strength, leading this pack for the better, letting my pack fear my ruling, showing no sign of weakness on my side even though I see it everyday in the mirror.

But it does not mean I should tell my Beta about it.

“She is weak.” I just answered to stop him from wondering. “And the weak won’t help this pack to be stronger.”

Hypocrite! My wolf screamed at me. We are weak but we made this pack strong!

Shut the fuck up! We are not weak!

Low growls escaped my chest and Brent snapped his head to looked at me with curiosity.

“Fine. No need to be furious. Your temper is already worse than before.”

“Then stop being nosy.”

“What do you plan to do with your mate? It will hinder your work if you will keep resisting the mate bond, you know that.”

“I just told you to stop being nosy.”

“I’m not prying about your mate crisis. What I cared about is the pack and from how I see it, this may affect your way of leading.”

I sighed, he got a point. The mate bond was hard to break, it was not just a rule, it was inevitable.

“What is the worst thing that I may encounter?” I asked, looking up to the moon. I wonder what games the Moon Goddess is playing…

“Well, a lot. You claimed her and it might ease the craving of your wolf, and having a full control of your power does not mean you won’t get agitated at times.”

I sighed. “I never focused on this mate thing, tell me more.”

“Yeah, we didn’t expect you’ll mate this soon. You only had the alpha title for a year.”

My father, the former Alpha of this pack, passed the position when I turned twenty-one, and now I was in my 22nd. This was too soon to meet my mate. Why was the fate hurrying to slap this mate bond into my face?

I still got a long way towards success…

“You think you can handle the urges?” Brent asked.

I was deep in my thoughts and I was lost onto what we were talking about.

“What?”

“The sexual urges. You met her, you claimed her, your body will continue seeking to complete the mating.”

Sexual urges, huh.

“The way you felt these last month is nothing compare to what you will face now that you’ve met her. The wolf knew its mate, it will continue on lusting over her. Also, her wolf won’t stop producing its own mating call.”

“I can just fuck another.”

Brent snorted from my answer. “You know she will felt that, right?”

I chuckled. “So what? If she ain’t weak then she has to keep up with the pain.”

Why did that sounded wrong?

“You’ve gone mad.” he shook his head. “But that won’t be enough, Jake.”

“I’ll have more to ease my thirst, then.”

Oh.

Okay, that was awkward. So I was not yet having a title. Ugh! This was so embarrassing that I claimed it easily just like that!

I forgot that every pack has different ways and set of norms to follow.

But I liked to be in that party!

There was one thing that caught my attention though!

“There will be a ceremony for me…” my eyes are shining as I spoke bluntly. I blushed from the thought of being introduce to my mate’s pack! Ahhhh! Butterflies in my stomach! Stop!!

I couldn’t believe I was feeling this enthusiast from hearing that now!

“Yes, so can you be so obedient and get in the car?” Harley said in a dry, emotionless voice as he opened a car door for me.

I looked back at the Hall once more and pouted. “I really wanted to be in that party though…” my shoulder slumped.

Oh, well, a Luna ceremony was better than that, I guess.

I slide inside the back of the car and closed my eyes. Harley closed the door and I watched him walk to the driver’s seat.

I smelled a sweet intoxicating scent and my core quiver just from it!

Mate!

I looked around and saw Jacob walking closer to the car I was in. Harley also halted before he could even open the driver’s seat.

I quickly enhanced my hearing to pry on what they will talk about.

“I’ll take it from here. You just came back from your mission. Take a rest.” my handsome, lovely mate!

He was taking me home!

I thought he wouldn’t but I guess he got a soft heart, huh?

Harley disappeared and Jacob fixed his suit before opening the car door and sliding inside the car.

I leaned forward and smiled at him even though he was turning his back at me. I was basically on his face but he aloofly ignored me.

“You can’t resist me, hmm..” I swear, I was risking my pride by teasing him like this! I tried my best to keep my shame away just to say that!

“Don’t get your hopes up.”

“Then why are you taking me home? I thought you don’t want to?” I chuckled.

He turned his head to me in an annoyed way and my eyes went wide when I realized how close I was to him.

Our nose almost touched!

Jacob cleared his throat and I pulled myself away a little.

“I still don’t want to but I forgot you’re a flirt. I’m just saving my Gamma the trouble.” then he started the engine and drove off.

My fucking jaw dropped flat on the fucking ground! Did I heard him right?

“What?! I’m not a flirt!”

Where is these judgment about me coming from?!