Not just the Beta (Oriana and Slade) novel Chapter 52

Ana

There were still days or nights when Ana stood outside and wondered about that pack, what was going on within it. Sometimes she thought about contacting one or two of her old friends. That she could, she supposed, make contact with her friend Lindal, but she never did. Thought about it at times, but dismissed it at the same time.

She knew Lindal’s new Mate was very loyal to that place and its leadership. Had a feeling that if she did talk to Lindal, and he found out, he’d mention it, if asked about it. So, she pushed it aside each and every time.

Ana did understand her reasons for being out here, having left that pack, and knew she was just used to living the pack life, at times missed the social aspect of it, she guessed. 18 years of living that way was hard to just let go of, even though she’d chosen to leave and live her life this way. A new life for her and her daughter, with all the freedom to do as they wanted, when they wanted.

Maddie had understood it, hugged her sometimes and just seemed to understand her. Told her it was indeed hard to live away from a pack, when one’s life had always been inside a pack. That although she herself had left her home pack for very valid reasons. She, too, still had those moments all the time. They didn’t just go away.

She, too, sometimes thought about her previous life, even though it wasn’t so good, still at times thought about those happy little moments when she could recall her mother and father together, smiling down at her. The love and freedom before it all went to shit. Those moments were hard to forget.

That it would get easier with time, she just had to focus on the good ones only, push passed the moments that brought her heartache and sadness. Enjoy the happy nostalgic moments she did recall. But when she was hit with the memories of why she left, how she felt, to think of the life she had now, that it was better than to have stayed there.

It wasn’t going to happen overnight, that it was likely going to take a long time to do. Though she had then told Ana that having her here and as her sister, properly bonded to each other, she had started to feel less of those moments because she now had what she craved from pack life, friendship, loyalty, family and love.

Told Ana that it was still fresh, and she was still adjusting to this new life, it was okay, to not be okay sometimes. To feel sad about her old life, angry and ticked off as well. All her emotions were valid and to accept them. It was a very nice thing to hear, Maddie was more than good company for Ana.

She smiled all the time, went out of her way to be funny and make Ana laugh, and she was right as the time passed, having that sister bond was of great comfort. Maddie had told her she felt a kin

bond to Ocean even, their blood bond had created a true kin bond which extended to little Ocean.

This made Ana happy, she had truly found her family, had a sister that liked her for who she was, knew there was actual sisterly love there as well. She had stopped looking at Maddie as just a chosen sister. There was no more of that, Maddie simply was and would always be her sister.

They’d created something truly special, a true family bond, because they wanted to be each other’s family. She was much closer to Maddie than she had been to anyone inside that Beta’s family, back inside that pack. Her chosen sister bond was stronger than a beta bloodline bond to the wolves that had created and birthed her.

She had no other family, just Maddie and Ocean now. She was a pure-blooded Beta and no longer had any parents, they had died. No longer existed for her. This was her life, she lived with her sister and her daughter, and was happy in her life. That was now all that mattered to her.

She went back to work when Ocean was three months old, back to the café, wore Ocean in a baby

harness strapped to her chest as she worked. There were plenty of customers that oohed and aahed over Ocean. Especially when she opened her eyes and started smiling at them when they wanted to see her.

She would laugh, squeal and babble away as she was carried about, had turned into a happy baby, she seemed to enjoy the social aspect of being in the café. Maddie put that down to being wolfen,

that even when small, wolfen children liked the company of others. She rarely cried when they were at the café.

But there it was a teeny tiny glimmer of hope that, just maybe, someone would have cared enough to look for her. Though it was only very small, maybe 5% of her thought that. It was the very reason she now knew, why she had left the way she did, in case anyone cared to hunt her down. Though again, with every day that passed, she doubted it.

There had not been any missing persons reports going out on her in the human or wolfen world that she or Maddie knew of. There had been nothing on the human internet or the wolfen intranet that Maddie had found, and she had checked it, daily at first in the beginning, and then weekly. But nothing at all, not in either world.

This showed her she’d been right to leave that place. No one really cared at all, that hurt sometimes more than being gone from the pack. Ana no longer cared to use the names of anyone from that place when she randomly thought about them if something reminded her of anyone there. Just their rank and it was now just a place she had once lived in was all.

She had pushed it all to that in order to forget her past, and the history of betrayal that was there. Her only connection to that place now was her daughter and, with any luck, she would go un-noticed, all her life as well.

Having kept her child a secret and then blood bonding herself to Maddie, there was a chance, a good chance, that he’d never even sense out he had a child. Which meant they could live their lives without concerning themselves about that happening.

The future Alpha of that place had a mate now, so he wouldn’t think about her at all. He also had a new Beta to replace her in that capacity as well. She would be forgotten by him. A blip on the man’s radar, that was going to fade and disappear quickly, likely already had, being she’d been gone for so long now.

He would be to wrapped up in his happy love bubble with Audrey. They would have a baby of their own at some point, and that would permanently obliterate her from his memory. He had no idea about their child, didn’t even recall having sex with her, so she didn’t have to worry about him hunting her down to find his offspring.

It wouldn’t even be a conceivable thought to him, that he and her would have a child. They were not like that in his mind. Even if he saw her, as long as she wasn’t with Ocean, he’d never even know he had a daughter, and she was going to keep it that way.