Why did she " Divorce Me " novel Chapter 20

Amoli's Pov.:-

He carried me towards his bedroom... He placed me on the bed .... gently... After entering his room.

My whole body is shivering like a leaf in fear .... Fear what he is upto ?... Is he again going to do same ? Is this last day of my life ? Will I be alive if he again forced hisself on me ?.....

All the questions are running around me head ... And I feeling puking on his head while seeing him around me.

He set beside me and cleared his throat .. making me gasped in fear .

God please ... Save me ... I swallowed hard the fear which is choking my throat hard.

My neck muscles are itching by fast contraction and relaxation of it's muscles as my heartbeat is increasing with the passing minutes.

".. listen you bitch sign these divorce papers ...

If you signed them , than you will get whatever you want from me... Money , villa , car , luxury .. anything . (I frowned while listening his words and getting what he mean to say..  huh.. money is not everything , I am not some gold digger...)

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But if you won't signed them , than you will get only pain and see the hell every day .. like you had saw yesterday and on our wedding night ...

( A soul freaking out terrified shivered ran down my spines as my brain soaked his words)

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So , tell me are you going to sign them or not

Make a wise decision ." he said giving me divorce papers and pen in my hand to sign them.

I hold the papers in my trembling hands ... And took a deep breath to calmed my racing heart which was ready to came out by breaking my ribs.

I saw the papers .. his signature on them .... This man ... Pufff

I am still seating on the bed while he is standing beside me , a step away from me .... 

I took deep breath and gathered all the courage to speak out boldly infront of him.

" I .. I am not going to sign them , why are you so obsessed for Divorce  , can't you give a try to this marriage o"... I got cut by his slap...

*Sob*.

I hold my aching cheek with my trembling hand while half laying on the bed...

"Listen you bitch ... If you don't wanna give me divorce than okay ... Accept your all wife responsibility ..

Stop crying like a child , stop behaving like this ... (He chide on me when he saw me weeping hard )

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You will do all house cores ,will help me to get  ready for my office , always obey me , and last not the least will please me .... your husband..." He said holding my hairs in his fist and pulled my and his face close to eachother , to merge our eyes in eachother's.

My eyes are shining in tears and asking for mercy while his are dark in rage ... Rage to kill me today.

" And what about you... Are you not going to accept your husband responsibilities .. a husband never rapes his wife , he never disrespect her , he love her , treat her equal , make her feel special - safe , make her feel safe ... Are you.. are you doing a husband's responsibilities " I said pushing him away from my body ... And hit him on his chest with my little fist.

Enough is enough I can't handle this much .. I am a human being not a thing which doesn't felt pain or hurt .

I can't handle this mantel and physical abuse and to save myself from it I have to raise my voice.

" I don't want this marriage to continue .. I just want divorce .. you should do your wife's duty because you're the one who is not ready to give me divorce....its you who want this marriage to continue

If it was in my hand than I would have gave you divorce the same night when we got married ..

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I don't want to give a shit to this marriage .. so, why I should do a husband duty ...

I saying it clear to you ... That I am not a husband material .. I am a bad man , a devil ..

Who is born to fuck not to make love and plan family " he standing infront of me .

"You still have time bitch ... To back off from this and sign these divorce papers and free yourself from this hell.." he said

" No .. I won't " I said

It's really hard for me to say no ... Yes was running in my mouth , and over my tongue to spell out but I swallowed it and said no...

I also don't wanna to stay in this hell showing marriage but I have to for the promise which I have given to my father.... Only for that promise I married him and enduring his this behaviour silently. 

" You call for it yourself .. and I would love to fuck your this amazing pussy everyday.. and don't to dare to cry or scream when I am fucking you .. If you do than you will get  punishment for disobeying me " he said while licking his lower lips .. while moving his tongue over his lips... Like a evil man.

" You can't do this to me ... You rapist ! , .. you don't have right to touch me without my permission ..

You stay away from me , another wise I will tell your parents about you , that you're mistreating me !" I shout on him in rage ..

'run Amoli... Hide somewhere' my terrified self shout over my head.

" Hahahahaha .... First thing is that bitch , I am not raping you .. I am your husband so , I have my right over your this body (he said while eyeing me lustly and showing his index finger towards my body)

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and about complaining to my parents about me

Go ahead do it .. I don't give a fuck to anyone ..

But remember after complaining about me to my parents don't step in this house " I said in threating tone... And me became mute .

He clearly knows how to shut me .

" Why are you doing all this .. can't you give this marriage a try ..(Varun came towards her )

Please don't do this ... I am your wife atleast .." he won't let me complete my words and attacked on my lips ...

He is biting my lips angrily .. he is releasing his whole anger in this kiss .

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" You're my wife that why I am fucking you ..

That's why people get married to get physical pleasure from eachother " he said in hushed voice ..while resting his forehead over mine and rubbing his nose over mine.

After listening his words ... I forgot to speak ..

His thinking is disgusting .. I felt nauseous after clearly understanding that he is a devil ... Disgusting devil.

I pushed his away from me and hit him on his face ... Which got clenched after getting hit from me .

"I think you got your wild energy back.." I cut him...

" Shut up .. just shut up " I shout on him with hand moving up and down vigorously and hold my head in my hands atlast.

" What... Are you listening yourself ! ... People do marriage not for getting physical pleasure from eachother ... But for giving name or new identity to their love .

So that , their love get respect in this society .

Or to spent their life with eachother till death do them apart

, they made love not because for only getting pleasure but to show their love to eachother by showing their rights on eachother's body .. not by forcefully like.. like you . (I said showing my index finger towards him )

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And their this beautiful love making .. gives them a baby , an angel .. which is a indication of their love for eachother.

But how you will understand this ..