He Didn’t Look for Me Until I Was Dead (by Durrin) novel Chapter 30

Chapter 30

In the clear, crisp voice, there was an unmistakable air of pride.

I turned my head and saw him standing there, completely unharmed.

Calvin looked at me intently and asked, “Can we talk in private?”

That look in his eyes made me instinctively want to refuse. “What do you want to talk about?”

I tried to be tactful with my words, though what I really wanted to say was something else.

What is there left for us to talk about?

This time, Calvin didn’t back down at all. He said, “Let’s talk about the past.”

For some reason, as soon as he said that, my heart suddenly skipped a beat.

So I turned my head and gave Reginald a look. “Reginald, I’ll message you later.”

He seemed to sense the subtle shift in atmosphere as well. Without saying anything more, he nodded at me and turned to leave.

Only the two of us were left.

The emotion in Calvin’s eyes became even more apparent, but the first thing he said was, “I’m not with Georgia.”

I was taken aback, not understanding. “Why?”

It truly surprised me. I couldn’t understand why, when the two of them seemed so well–matched, and now that I was no longer in the way, they still weren’t together.

Calvin was silent for a moment, then shook his head. “There’s no reason. I just wanted you to know.”

After a pause, he asked, “After graduation, do you plan to stay in New York?”

I raised my eyebrows in confusion, not sure why he cared, but I still nodded. “New York is great.”

At least here, there are none of those terrifying memories from my previous life.

Hearing this, Calvin simply nodded silently, then said something ambiguous: “Alright.”

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I was about to ask him something when I heard the man say, “I have something to do, so I’ll head back first.”

With that, he gave me one last deep look before turning and leaving.

I didn’t understand, but I couldn’t be bothered to speculate any further.

Such a wonderful time as college graduation shouldn’t be spent trying to figure out a man’s thoughts.

The graduation trip I never completed in my previous life–this time, I am determined to see it through.

When I brought up the topic with Reginald, he was very interested and enthusiastically wanted to help me plan the itinerary.

I shook my head and refused him. “No need, I’ll go by myself.”

This is my own graduation trip; there’s no need for anyone to accompany me.

Reginald’s expression fell for a moment when he heard my resolute refusal.

I couldn’t help but wonder, over the past few years, whenever I turned him down, did he always feel this disappointed when I wasn’t looking?

Thinking of this, I couldn’t help but feel a pang of guilt.

Over these four years, even though Reginald was far away overseas, he still took care of me in his own meticulous way.

But after experiencing such a failed marriage in my previous life, I really don’t have the courage to accept such an intimate relationship again.

So, after all these years, Reginald and I have remained just friends, never letting him get even a step closer.

In fact, during that time, I tried to persuade him: there are so many wonderful women in the world, why hang yourself on this one tree?

He was studying abroad, and there must have been plenty of outstanding girls around him, so I often encouraged him to meet other women.

But for some reason, Reginald seemed to have developed an obsession with me and never once talked about giving up.

So, whenever I faced him, I always felt a bit more guilty than I did with anyone else.

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But I know better than anyone that he doesn’t need a love that comes from my guilt.

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