Regrets Come Too Late (Sierra and Johnny) novel Chapter 448

"I'm fine." Sierra felt like something heavy was crushing her chest. Every trace of positivity in her was swallowed in an instant. "I'm going to study to look something up. You two keep talking."

She set the phone down and walked away.

Seeing how distracted she looked, Holly's eyes filled with worry.

Nicholas noticed something was happening right now. "Sierra…?"

Holly pulled her attention back and said, "She probably can't accept everything right now. Leave her alone for a while."

"Isn't this a good thing?" Nicholas could be terrible at reading people sometimes. "She can use this against John and Pamela, get the divorce done, and finally be free!"

"No wonder you're still single." Holly didn't go easy on him at all.

Nicholas blinked. "What?"

Was there something wrong with what he said?

Holly turned her eyes toward the study. "She was in love with John for five years. They could have been happy for the rest of their lives if Pamela didn't appear."

Now that she had found out that after everything and it all led right back to the beginning… Anyone would have a hard time accepting that.

"Shouldn't you go comfort her?" Nicholas felt a little guilty.

"No," Holly said, knowing Sierra well. "She has to work through this on her own. If I go in there, she'll just hide how she really feels."

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In the study, Sierra sat down in front of the tall window. Her gaze went past the glass to the lawn and garden outside. Her mind was completely blank as she just sat there in silence.

She didn't even know what she was feeling.

She was neither sad nor angry. She just couldn't bring herself to care about anything anymore.

It was as if all her emotions had been drained away in an instant. She was looking out into the distance, but she wasn't looking at anything at all.

That went on until around two in the morning and still didn't stop.

It was only when Holly came in that she snapped out of it.

"What you need to think about is what you want." Holly understood the state Sierra was in. "Leave everything else to time. Right now, the only question that matters is whether you still want to divorce him."

Sierra did not hesitate. "I do."

"Then we'll go see him tomorrow!" Holly said.

Sierra pressed her lips, her heart in shambles.

John still had not truly moved on from what happened back then. If she told him herself, she was scared he would fall right back into the state Kenneth had described.

"Let him find out on his own," Sierra said. This was the only thing she could still give him. "Tell Nicholas's people to stop blocking them. If they want to investigate, let them."

If she were the one to tell him, the shock would be too much.

Between him finding out that she was the one who had saved him in the past and yet she still wanted a divorce, there was no room at all.

He had loved her for so many years and treated her well for so long.

In the end, she wanted to give him this small bit of mercy. In her own way, this was repaying all the years of love and the way he had always made an exception for her.