The Big Sky Alpha novel Chapter 139

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FREYA POV

The ride home was beautiful. Valleys, prairies, and other mountain views on the way to our

precious mountain home.

I still felt that I had to ask Colt about last night.

“Can I ask you something?” I asked, feeling kind of nervous about asking him questions from him

saving me.

“Of course.” He answered, clearly not expecting it to be about last night.

I took a deep breath, “Did you know about the bachelor party tradition?”

He looked over at me a little confused, “Bachelor party? That’s what it’s called?” He laughed, “Not a ******g clue Freya. You should have seen how incredibly uncomfortable we were all night having to be stuck in that damned place.”

He wasn’t a part of the discussion, but Levi chimed in, “So f*****g uncomfortable. I’ve never seen anything so ridiculous. I can’t believe that crap is legal.”

Clearly, he was not looking forward to having to talk to Jessi about that part of the trip.

“So, how did you know to come find me?” I asked.

He looked saddened by my question.

“Truth is that I didn’t. I was not enjoying myself at the strip club, neither was Levi so we were trying to get out of there and go back to the hotel. Damon said you wouldn’t be there because you were at another strip club. I didn’t like that.” He answered

“So, you didn’t come to the club because I was in trouble. You came to the club because you were upset that I was at a strip club.” I asked, fully regretting asking at all.

“I wasn’t sure if you knew all the weird tradition things they were doing. I sure didn’t. I went there to get you and bring you back to the hotel with me.” He didn’t seem to regret his decision. I guess I can’t say I regret it either.

“Turns out I was in the right, because had I not then.” He stopped talking.

A long pause filled the car.

Levi broke the silence, “Just promise me I never have to go back to another place like that. Ever.”

Colt and I laughed. “Honestly, if I ever had to go back to a city again it would be much too soon.” I answered.

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Colt seemed to like that response. His insecurities about the city life I used to live are hopefully squashed now.

As we pulled up to the parking lot where we leave the vehicles, peace settled in.

We are home. The guys grabbed our luggage. I shifted and took off. I couldn’t handle being away any longer. Stella ripped through the mountain forest quickly. Not so fast that I couldn’t enjoy the feeling of the wind rushing through her fur, the smell of the crisp autumn all around us, the sounds of the twigs snapping below her feet and the rustling of the leaves.

It took no time at all to get back to the pack house broke through the doors and found my sweet children playing with their auntie Jessi.

Jessi smiled, “Left the guys there?” she laughed.

“Oh they would have killed me if I left them there.” laughed back, “I left them at the car with the luggage so they could haul that crap up and I could see my kids.”

She laughed with me.

After a few minutes of me saying hi to the kids and playing with them I could feel that she wanted to ask me something.

“What is it?” I asked her, giving her the knowing look that I knew she had something to ask so she

wasn’t getting out of asking.

She sighed, “I guess I was just wondering what it was like.”

“What do you mean?” I asked her.

She shrugged, kind of embarrassed I think, “Well, was it everything you remember the city being like? Was it anything like home? Did it make you want to go back home?” She started asking all these questions and then I realized she was asking hot because of me, but because of her.

“Do you miss it, Jess?” I asked.

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“Sometimes I think I might.” She admitted, guilt showing on her face.”

I thought hard before I answered the question.

“I never enjoyed the city life. I lived it, and I did well in it because it was all I knew. Now I have lived a different life. Now I know what life I’m supposed to live.” I closed my eyes fighting the tears, the

fear, the emotion of remembering last night.

“Nothing about the trip was anything I remembered about the city. The music was constantly everywhere, the people were just…” I shrugged not being able to think of the right way to express the way I felt about them, “Not our people. I hated this trip so much. I never want to go back.”

She looked to the ground where the kids were playing and got quiet, “I always felt so happy and

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free back home. I didn’t have responsibility, you know? I just, sometimes I think I miss that

freedom.” She admitted.

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“Jess, you did better back home than I ever did, and I understand if you miss it. Visiting might be something you do. Go visit your family instead of them coming here all the time like mine do since

I don’t wish to go back. What’s right for you might not be the same as what’s right for me.” I said,

hoping that I wasn’t slowly convincing my friend to up and leave our home here.

“I do feel that I have to say though, we’re not the same people we were before we found our

mates. I was given a taste of that freedom on this trip and the old me would have not necessarily loved it, but the old me would have at least been able to enjoy myself. New me though, new me couldn’t stand it. I craved the silence, I craved the peace, I craved the trees.” I said.

She smiled at me for a second and then the smile went away. “Freya, what happened that made you hate it?”