The Big Sky Alpha novel Chapter 47

COLT POV

Freya really can be an animal when she wants to be. I’ve loved that about her. Even when we aren’t hazing she can really make a man’s toes curl.

However, the last couple of times has been different. I can’t control myself and I know she can’t either. Yes, Freya can be aggressive and take control in bed and be crazy when we’re together, but this hasn’t been my Freya these last couple of times.

I know it’s bothering her after last night just like it’s bothering me, so today she set out to try to master the healing and begin communicating with the Goddess. Honestly, she’s been kicking real a*s! She’s mastered so much already and I think yesterday might have been the break she really needed to get out of her head.

She’s been acting a little moody lately, it’s been pretty clear she’s stressing a lot. I decided today was the day to wrap up the planning on the wedding and the Luna ceremony. Tomorrow is a free day for me and I have a surprise I’m going to put together for her.

Freya’s body is untouched by ink. In our pack it is customary to get at least two symbolic tattoos. Clearly, you can get more which our entire pack has opted to do, but two is the minimum and it’s just tradition.

The men in our pack get them when they turn 16 and they get their wolves, the women in our pack get them at 18 or when they’re mated. I’m not really sure on the reasoning behind the women waiting, but it’s tradition and our pack is really big on tradition.

I’ve done a few of my own tattoos and a couple for my beta. I’m going to be the one that does Freya’s, but I know this is going to be incredibly difficult for her. Tattoos are not the same in our pack as outside the pack, so I’ve been told by others who’ve decided to get some from us, like Damon.

We don’t use technology, so there’s no tattoo gun. We do it the old fashioned way. We do the stick and poke way. Takes longer to do, is a bit more painful, but also heals faster so it’s not all bad. Still addicting.

I’ve decided to do her tattoo at the waterfalls so she’s relaxed. Frankly, I’m nervous about the wedding, the ceremony, and the tattoos. I’m just hoping I’m doing it all perfectly for her, she deserves so much better than anything I have to offer, but I’m going to do everything I can.

When I wrapped up the last of the wedding and ceremony tasks I headed back to the pack house. Freya usually stops about this time and heads to the house to shower and eat. She’s been eating so much lately. It is not impeding her figure though, learning these abilities has been taking so much out of her.

I went up to our room and I could smell her. She’s showing, just as I expected. I took my jeans off and stepped in the shower with her. She’s so sexy, I can’t help but get hard when I see her naked, or even partially naked.

She was leaning over with her forehead pressed against the shower wall and her hands supporting her. When I do that it generally means I’m pissed, upset, or overwhelmed. I wrapped my arms around her stomach and leaned into her.

“Hey baby, you alright?” I asked.

She sighed, “I’m okay.” not convincing me at all.

I turned her around to look at me and I realized she looked exhausted.

“I pushed myself really hard today. I mastered healing and I really tried to get a grasp on the communication but I started feeling really tired.” she giggled nervously.

“Eunice sent me home for the day and when I got here I threw up.” she just shrugged her shoulders. “I just need to shower and eat.”

“Freya, I’m pretty sure this isn’t supposed to be so hard on your body.” I rubbed her back and held her in my arms.

“Something else must be going on, let’s go to the healer and see if maybe there’s something going on from the rogue bites.” I kissed her forehead, “Alphas from your bloodline were doing these things as normal practice.I can’t imagine they’d be doing it if it weakened them like this.” she didn’t like that idea, but she agreed.

Unfortunately, the haze hit before we could even get dressed. I immediately tried to gain control so I could be gentle with my already very fragile mate. However, my attempt was met with great failure. I’m an alpha with no control during the haze. This is ridiculous.

She wasn’t able to control herself either. I tried so hard to stop myself, she wanted it in her haze state but her body was so weak and worn down I wanted to be easy on her.

When our haze ended I quickly got dressed and helped her to the healer. Right away the healer knew something was wrong with her. You can see it in her face, she’s just not her normal well put together self.

They told me I could leave and they’d send someone to get me when they had answers but I refused. There’s no way I’m leaving her. I knew there’s a small possibility she could be pregnant, though it’s much too soon to know for sure.

The talk of pups before scared her so I need to be here if the healers can tell that already.

She’s only been here a couple weeks though so the chances of them knowing are slim to none. I mind linked Levi to have him tell her parents I brought her here.

After a bunch of questions and the healers checking her out they were able to figure out what they think the problem might be. She was still fighting off the infection. She’d woken up and she’d healed extremely well but the infection lingered. They gave her medicine, and said that she needs to stay hydrated and relax. They also said to bring her back if she doesn’t improve.

We left and ran into Harland. I quickly filled him in on what’s been going on with her, he agreed that she’s not been herself lately. Though he’s not been able to do the communication either, it’s not been draining him like it has been her.

“Your mother knows where to find one of the witches.” he said happily after he learned that Freya will be okay.

“That’s great! We can leave tomorrow!” Freya said much too eager.

“We will go after the ceremony.” I quickly interrupted. “That will give us the next few days to let Freya take this medicine and hopefully begin feeling better and her blood will work by then.” I said slowing my mate down.

Her father agreed. One of them needs to get the communication down to get the final ingredients so this buys us a couple days. Not to mention, I don’t want to wait any longer to marry this amazing woman and make her my Luna.

Something tells me she needs the extra strength of our mate bond being completed in order to get through this too.