The Big Sky Alpha novel Chapter 84

FREYA POV

Colt left early to go training with the pack, and he had a few meetings today to take care of. Before we went to sleep last night he made passionate love to me, he was so tender and sweet the whole way through and I could feel his love for me surround us through the night. He told me he was going to take a little break to spend time with me before I have the babies.

I’m assuming that’s why he is having these meetings today. He needs to make sure the men do everything around here that needs to be done before the harsh winter sets in. Eunice said it’s going to be pretty intense for us. He’s been keeping his distance from us lately, I can’t tell if it’s just because he’s spending more time with girlfriend (yes they finally got together!) or if it’s something else but honestly it has been bothering me.

I went down to breakfast and grabbed a little food. I haven’t been super hungry lately but I know Colt is already worried so I don’t want to worry him even more by not eating. I took my breakfasts to go so I could go meet with Sasha the healer. Colt told me last night that he wants me to go to her a little more frequently because he wants me to get some strength back before the babies get here. My parents are going to be here at some point today too, so I want to go to their hut and get it ready for them. Colt probably wont like me doing that but being stuck resting all the time is making me stir crazy.

I figure if I just get their hut a few braided strands of the fall leaves to place around their fruit bowl and dust a little bit then my mom might be more comfortable. Not that she’s complained about it at all, but I need to have some little excuse ready if Colt catches me.

“Good morning Luna.” Sasha said as I walked up.

“Good morning Sasha. I assume Colt has already told you why I am here before my next appointment?” I smiled at her because I knew he had talked to her before he said anything to it.

“Oh but of course. Alpha is very concerned about you.” She said with a smile. I knew she was trying to hide it, but there was a clear concern in her eyes too.

I slid my panties off and laid in the bed she had waiting for me, while she reached up to check me I suddenly began feeling a little dizzy.

“You need to stay off your feet Luna. You’re very close.” She said cleaning herself up.

“How close is close?” I asked as I sat up, bracing myself for the room to spin a little bit.

“I wouldn’t expect you to make it through another week let alone a weekend.” Her eyes clouded over slightly and I knew she was linking Colt to let him know.

Great, now he’s going to be even more paranoid. I’m getting nervous though. I’ve obviously never gone through this before and I know it’s going to be excruciating.

I stood up to leave and held on to the table a little longer than I usually would. I’m still dizzy but it’s not too bad. Sasha grabbed my hand gently to stop me.

“Alpha says not to let you leave, he’s on the way.” she sounded like she really wanted to apologize to me.

Part of me was a little frustrated, but the other part of me was a little glad he was coming.

It only took him a couple of minutes to get there. When he did, I don’t know what came over me but I felt so very drunk. I stood and flopped myself in his arms and started giggling like I was a little girl.

“You’re handsome” I said between giggles.

He looked at me with a worried expression, he wasn’t even trying to hide it. “You feeling okay?” he asked.

What the f**k is wrong with me? “I don’t know.” I couldn’t stop giggling. I was getting dizzier and dizzier.

The giggling stopped, but it didn’t stop the dizziness. I just looked over at Colt and turned away from him. Thank Goddess we ended up outside somehow during the giggling spell because I threw up what little I had to eat for breakfast.

The next thing I knew I was seeing the trees and the sky. “Beautiful.” I think I said as I blinked. When I opened my eyes I was seeing the night sky with trees around me. I sat up and realized I was in a familiar place, but I wasn’t home.

“It looks like we need to have a talk.” I looked over and found the moon goddess sitting next to me.

“Why am I here?” I asked her, trying to judge the look on her face. She didn’t look like the normal bubbly and relaxed self that I’ve seen the last couple of times I’d seen her.

“Freya, no one believes you’re going to live through delivering these pups.” She said as she dropped her head down.

I gasped, “Excuse me?” I said as I was trying to wrap my head around what she was saying. This visit seems very different, I can feel my pain now and I couldn’t in the past.

“Freya…” She began with a very sad but stern voice. “I kept you alive when you should have died with the Crow people.” She placed her hand on my leg, I could feel a calming feeling coming from her but I could still feel my pain.

Her words surprised me, “What do you mean Goddess?” I asked, not understanding why I should have died.

“They poisoned you Freya, with several lethal doses of something they didn’t understand. They didn’t intend to kill you, but you should have died before you even made it out of the pack grounds.” Her words were hitting me like bricks.

“I couldn’t let you die. You’re the only one who can have these children. They have to be born. I’ve been keeping you alive to keep them alive and it’s having its toll on you.” She said. The more she spoke the more questions that came to me.

“Is this why I have been feeling the way I’ve been feeling? Why I can’t use my abilities? Why I can’t eat much, why I can’t heal?” I asked

She nodded. “Am I going to die?” I asked her.

“That is something I can’t answer. The only thing I can guarantee at this point is that those pups will be born, they will be healthy, and they’re far greater to the species than any of you will ever understand.” She said with a smile as she rubbed my arm.

I think she’s trying to calm me as I sit here and realize that I might not meet my pups, I might not make it through this.

“Please calm down Freya.” She said, her smile gone.

I hadn’t realized that I began crying.”How am I supposed to calm down? I just found out that I might not live to meet my babies! I might not ever be with my husband again. I might not ever get to see Hunter and Kira cry, smile, walk, laugh, or anything! How does one simply calm down?” I was in a full panic. I can’t die. I need to survive. If I die, Colt will die soon after one way or another and we’ll leave our pups without parents. I can’t do this!

She placed her hands on me, “Freya you must try to calm down. You can still make it, I just don’t know yet. Your father must accomplish everything I’ve instructed him to first. Then and only then will you live through this.”