The Big Sky Alpha novel Chapter 86

FREYA POV

I woke up to my mom with her head down on the side of the bed crying. I looked around and realized I was back inside of Sasha’s place on that bed again. My mom must have felt me looking around, she lifted her head and yelled, “You’re awake!”

I smiled at her, I knew she knew. I didn’t have to adjust this time around, I remembered right away everything that just happened with the goddess. I placed my hand on my mom’s as she sat there staring at me, asking me a hundred questions.

“Mom, was dad able to do what the goddess asked him?” I couldn’t sugar coat everything. I don’t know when I’m having these babies but I know my dad was given instructions on making me a medicine.

“Oh honey, you don’t need to worry about that right now. Dad’s got everything handled. You just save your strength. No worrying about anything, okay?” she said. I just looked at her. I could see it on her face. She’s been worrying for a while about it. She’s scared.

I looked around and didn’t see Colt or my dad. “Where are they?” I asked.

“Oh s**t, I forgot to let dad know you’re awake.” She quickly linked him to tell him.

I laid my head back against the pillow on the bed. Sasha came in to check on me, I asked her if it is possible that I can be moved to our home. Nothing against her, I appreciate her hospitality but if I’m going to die soon I want to be in my home. She understood without me having to say any of it.

“I’ll let alpha know when he gets here so he can get it set up for you. We haven’t talked about it yet, but I’m assuming you want to birth at your home?” she asked me.

I hadn’t thought about it. I guess if things weren’t happening this way I’d probably say no. But given what I know might happen I am going to say yes, so I nodded.

“Mama, thank you for coming. I’m a little scared.” I admitted to her. She choked up and took a deep breath in trying not to cry. “It’s okay mom. I don’t want to act like everything is fine. I know what’s coming, or at least what’s possibly coming. I’d rather just face it head on with my family. It’s not going to do anyone any good to just pretend like we all know I’ll be okay.” I held her hand. “I need my family right now. I need the love of my parents and husband.”

She began to cry and stood to come sit on the bed with me and hug me. We sat there and cried together until I could sense Colt.

He slowly walked in with my dad. My mom didn’t move, and I think that made Colt stand off a little bit to the side. He came over and hugged and kissed me.

“I’m glad you’re awake baby.” He said, and stood back eyeing me. I could tell he’s been informed, I could see Max howling in Colt’s eyes.

My dad walked over and gave me a hug. He pulled back and just looked at me. Without saying anything he pulled out a bottle from his pocket. He set it down on the table and then sat at my mom’s feet on the bed and placed his hand on my leg.

It seemed like a very awkward silence, but frankly I don’t think any of us really know what to say or do. I realized everyone might be waiting on me to tell them what I want.

I sat up a little and cleared my throat, “I know this is a very difficult, for a lack of a better term, situation. I would like to begin this by just laying out what I want to happen.” I paused and looked at everyone who just kept their eyes on me to continue.

“Colt, I know that this is a request that I don’t think I’d ever ask of you unless it were a situation like this, but I would like to request that pictures get taken of us. I would like some pictures of all of us together, I would like to make a video for the kids, and I want them to be able to watch it when they’re older.” He looked at me with tears threatening to escape,” Anything you want baby.” I smiled at him choking back my own tears.

“Mom, I want you to gather photos you have for the kids and make them an album if I don’t make it.” I cleared my throat again. “As for right now, I want everyone to not walk around here acting like everything is perfectly fine. I know that I might make it through this with the medicine dad got for me, but I also know that I might not and I know everyone else knows this too. I don’t want everyone to be walking around here like we all know for sure that there’s another side of this delivery for me.”

My dad chuckled a little, “My girl…” he smiled at me.

I took a deep breath, “I want the love of my family right now. I want you to be here with me and I want to enjoy the time I might have left here. If I do make it out of all of this, then worst case is that we made the best of a horrible situation and it all worked out. If I don’t though, that’s what I want to prepare for.”

It took a few minutes to spill it all out, when I did my dad got my mom to leave the room. Colt sat at the side of the bed, “I already have a couple of people setting up our room. Sasha told me you want to go home and finish this all there.” He smiled.

I patted the bed right next to me, “I’m not glass babe, sit with me please. You’re not going to hurt me.” I said. He did as I asked. He put his hand on my leg and took in a deep breath. “Colt, I love you. I’m sorry things have been such a bumpy road for us and I know that I am the cause of quite of bit of those bumps.” I laughed, letting a couple tears come. “I need your right now though, because even though it’s only been a few months you’re my cornerstone.” He smiled at me and leaned over and kissed me.

It was a peck at first but he deepened the kiss. He wrapped his arms around me and breathed me all in as he let his lips stay with mine for just a little longer. When he pulled away it felt like he was pulling my heart away with him.

It was then that I knew, I’m having these babies soon.