The Big Sky Alpha novel Chapter 90

FREYA POV

Kira started crying. I heard Colt groan, “It’s your turn.” He chuckled sleepily as he rolled out of bed. I laughed and rolled out of bed too. Hunter hasn’t cried yet, but if Kira is crying, he’ll be crying soon after.

This is the third night in a row that Kira has decided none of us needed any sleep. I grabbed the teething ointment and sat down with her in my rocking chair next to Colt as he sat in his with Hunter. Colt hates the ointment; says it’s filled with chemicals children shouldn’t have. However, his pack’s idea of a teething remedy is sips of mead. So, I won that battle.

I’m not sure if I won the battle because the man-made ointment is better than sips of alcohol for the kids, or if it’s because he’s still mentally recovering from my death six months ago.

I don’t really remember dying. I don’t really remember much other than holding Kira and then suddenly I was waking up to a version of Colt I hoped I never had to see again. The pain and hurt that was plastered all over him was enough to break my heart the second I woke up. After he explained to me that I died, and that the goddess gave him a blanket made of her feathers to bring me back I understood completely. Though the actual pain he felt losing me was gone it was still such a fresh wound that it was clear on his face.

I never saw this blanket. Colt said that after he laid it down over me and covered me the blanket got brighter and brighter. He said that it got so bright everyone had to shield their eyes, it was like looking directly at the sun. Then suddenly it was gone. When he opened his eyes, the blanket had disappeared and within seconds I began waking up.

The cries of joy in the room that day were enough to make me tear up still. Even though at the time of the crying I didn’t understand what was going on. Looking back, I’ll never be able to thank the goddess enough. I will never really understand why she did what she did, but she gave my family a chance that was taken away from us.

Since then, I’ve spent every possible waking moment trying to be the best mother, the best wife, and the best Luna I could possibly be. It’s been hard, but Colt has been determined to be by my side helping with more than I ever imagined he would. He’s been waking up with me every night and helped me with the kids. We used to only have one rocking chair but he got another so he could sit with me when I was taking care of one of the babies, and he’d be rocking with the other.

Visually, he looks better than he did that night. Mentally, he still wakes up from nightmares about it sometimes. He still makes sure he’s with me as much as he can be. Which is really saying something because this winter has been incredibly harsh. Thank goddess it’s over and spring is in the air.

When the snow began, he knew right away it was going to be a rough winter. Thankfully, the pack prepared for a harsh winter thanks to Eugine. He’s been so good to the pack. With his visions predicting certain things for us our pack was able to stock up heavily on meats and trade with other packs for additional goods or services. Colt and a few other pack members have been continuing hunting through the winter for other game animals that are easier to get ahold of this time of year.

Fires have been running day and night in every hut all winter. I’ve been utterly impressed about the fact that we’ve not used nearly as much wood as I thought we would. Colt says it’s because of the way the huts and the pack house are built. They’re built to maximize the heat and the cool of the seasons. Now that it’s spring for us the fires aren’t as common throughout the days.

Spring starts a bit late for us up in the higher elevations. It’s June, most areas are looking at heading into summer. Though, our summer is close. Colt says that our summer season will begin about the end of June, early July time. The Alpha Games are going to be starting soon, but Colt says that he doesn’t want our pack involved this year. Too much has happened that we still have to recover from.

As I sat there thinking about the blessings we’ve been given these past six months, I can’t help but admire the man sitting next to me. Everything we’ve been through, and he still walks around here with his head high and continues to be an amazing alpha.

We put Hunter and Kira back in their cribs and headed to our bed together. I wrapped myself around him and cuddled up. He rubbed his hand up and down my back until I fell asleep.

The next day was a bit of a big deal for us. Levi and Jessi agreed to watch the babies for us so we could go for a ride together. Colt’s been wanting to do this with me for a while now but couldn’t when I was weak and pregnant. Then, I had an insane amount of healing to do after Sasha had to open me up to get Kira out. Now that I’m all healed up and have been given the okay, Jessi decided it was time that Colt and I got to enjoy being us for a day without the kids.

Not that I needed to get away from the kids, but damn if I don’t want to enjoy my husband a little bit. Jessi and I have been spending a lot of time together lately as well. She had her baby boy Jaxson last month and it’s been nice for us both to get to spend the time together with the kids. Colt was telling me since she had a boy, he’ll likely end up being Hunter’s beta. Knowing that makes Jessi feel secure about the future of her son.

As I got dressed for my special day with Colt I heard Jessi knock at the door. She came in and gave me the bestie look over.

“Are you excited to have crazy outdoor sex with your husband?” She said as she plopped herself on the bed.

“Geez, straight to the point.” I laughed.

“Oh come on, we both know you both can’t wait to get away to f**k each other senseless.” She smiled as she laid there playing with her hair. “There’s a difference between quiet quickies while the kids sleep and total satisfaction.” She’s quite the character.

I’m not going to lie, she’s absolutely right. Colt and I need this, the first time we got to have sex after I healed was just a couple weeks ago and though it felt amazing, it was nothing like we used to be. Between him trying to be very gentle and treating me like I’m a glass doll and having to keep it quiet for the sake of not waking the kids we need this get away to spark us back up.