The Jilted Alpha (Jaxon and Sable) novel Chapter 41

Jaxon POV

“Pretty hot, huh?” I said looking at Sable. Her lips are swollen and her hair is a tousled mess. Her eyes look shy but glassy with desire. I hated pulling back, but she is a virgin and when I make her mine, I’m not going to do it in a shower or up against a wall.

‘Finally! You admit you want her!’ Drax says sounding exasperated. ‘This would have gone much better if you would have listened to me on day one!’

‘Shut it, Drax. Yes, I admit it. I have feelings for her and I want her. I am just not sure how to fully open up to her.’

‘How about you move her into our room? I want our mate beside us at night.’

That does sound nice. I want that too. Will she even go for it?

Her cheeks are red and I know she is trying to come up with a witty response. I interrupt her thoughts instead. “Sable, I would like, um, I mean would you consider moving into my room? I don’t want us apart at night. It’s driving me and Drax crazy.”

Her eyes widened like saucers and I think she is going to cry, but then she curls her shoulders like she’s unsure. Have I made her feel that insecure? Does she not trust me, even a little?

“Are you sure? I mean, I would love to, but um, as much as I love this side of you, I don’t understand what changed.” She said, and it’s a fair point. I just flipped my switch and decided to embrace the mate bond instead of fight it, fight her. I have admitted to myself that I want her and everything that comes with that statement. How do I say that, without explaining everything else?

‘You don’t. Just talk to her. Listen to your wolf!’ Drax says.

Okay. I can do this. I take a deep breath and I grab Sable’s hand. “Sit down. I have things I need to say. I can’t promise I will explain everything in any great detail, but I think you should know and maybe it will help you understand.”

She gives me a weary look, almost like she is bracing for me to hurt her. I swear it’s gutting me that she thinks I’m always going to let her down.

“Okay, I’m listening.” She says cautiously.

I take a deep breath, “The reason I was distant in the beginning is because you are not my first mate.” I stop. That’s a loaded confession I just made and I need her to wrap her head around it before I say anything else.

“Wait. You mean, I’m your second chance mate?” She asked.

“Yes.”

“What happened to your first mate?”

“She left.”

“Why?”

“And now, all of a sudden, realize that you were treating me unfairly?” She asked skeptically, “What changed?”

“I think the more interactions you and I have had, the more I am starting to see you are nothing like my first mate. You are funny, witty, strong, snarky, and adorable when you look at me with those very innocent eyes of yours. Not only that, but you are intelligent and resourceful and you continue surprising me and shocking me all the time. You stir emotions in me I am not familiar with and some I haven’t felt in a long time.” I confess.

I see the wheels in her head turning and I know she is trying to process everything. “I need time to think about everything you told me. I don’t want to move in yet. Maybe after we move my things out of Dark Flame. Then we can revisit moving into your room, Jaxon.” She said truthfully, “It’s hard to trust a person, who has kept this from me for weeks. Maybe it would have helped me navigate things with you better, had you been up front.”

I can’t be upset that she wants time to think, but I am. Not in an angry way, but a disappointed kind of way. “I understand. Let’s talk about it after we get back from Dark Flame.”

“Also, I’m not stupid. There is more and you haven’t come completely clean. Until you do, I’m not sure I can move in with you. I don’t like secrets. I haven’t kept any secrets from you. I trusted you to tell you about my gift. Which no one else, well other than Matt, knows about. Let that sink in, Jaxon.”

Then quietly she gets up and smiles gently but it doesn’t reach her eyes, “I’m going to walk around the pack for a while. I would appreciate it if you let me be today, while I sort through my thoughts.”

I feel deflated. I knew this was a bad idea. “Sure. How about I mind link you when it’s dinner time?”

She takes a deep breath and leans down towards me. She rests her forehead on me and I close my eyes, inhaling her scent. “I’m not going anywhere. I just need to process everything.”

She kisses me gently and before I grab her to deepen the kiss, she pulls away and walks out of the room.