The Big Sky Alpha novel Chapter 146

146. The help she needs

COLT POV

I feel like Freya is slowly breaking from this. Hearing her tell Jessi to obey her Luna like that, just didn’t feel like my Freya at all. I walked down after Freya stormed out. Jessi met me in the lounge

area with such a disturbed look on her face.

*Colt, she’s never spoken to me like that before.” Jessi said, disbelief flooding her voice.

“I don’t think I’ve ever heard her talk to anyone like that except me, and even then, that was years

ago.” I responded. “Jessi, I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to help her.”

Jessi looked at me with a sorry look on her face, “I think you need to talk to Harland. He’s going through some of this pain she’s feeling too. He might be able to relate to her in a way that can help her out of this weird place she’s in.”

I nodded my head. Maybe she’s right.

She turned and walked up the stairs, back with the kids. I decided that maybe it was time to go find Harland and explain to him the concerns we’re having about Freya right now. Maybe he can help.

I felt bad doing this. He’s just lost his wife in a way that clearly is unspeakable since he won’t tell

any of us what happened. I was always very fond of Misty, the idea that anything so horrible

happened to her that he won’t even say it feels like there’s a bad taste in my mouth at the thought

of her not being here now.

I wish I knew what happened to her so I could help Freya understand. I think part of the issue she’s

having is that she isn’t able to really put the event to her mother’s death. I think it’s also pretty

horrifying to her that her father won’t even speak the words of what happened to her.

As I walked to find him, I walked past Luke and decided I would try to speak with him when

Harland wasn’t around.

“Hey Luke, can I have a word?” I asked him.

He looked around and back toward me, “Um, sure I guess.” He walked over to me. “How can I help

you?”

I thought of how I’d say this to him without making it seem like I’m trying to get him to go against

the wishes of his Alpha.

“Luke, I am having some problems with Freya. We all have some concerns about how she’s

handling Misty’s death. Frankly, I think a lot of it has to do with not knowing what happened. I can’t

really explain it, Luke. She’s just not her right now, she’s shutting everyone out and won’t even

spend time with the kids for much more than just putting them to bed. It’s not like her.” I told him. I

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felt desperate.

“I am very sorry to hear this Alpha, but what exactly are you needing from me?” He asked.

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“Honestly, Luke I have no idea. I don’t know what to do, and you’ve known her for so long. I just felt like maybe you’d know what she might need.” I said

He just looked around, silence filling the air around us.

Finally, he said, “Look Colt, I’m sure knowing the details of Misty’s death is something she thinks

she needs. I can understand that, but she can’t know. Misty wouldn’t want anyone to know the

details, she wouldn’t want Freya to know most of all. When she finally died the pain of the mate

bond ripped through Harland and broke the link the vamps were using to control him, and he

began tearing their heads off with his bare hands. He killed the one controlling me and when I was

able to move again, I couldn’t control my emotions any longer. Watching what they did… I have

never enjoyed killing people before in my life until that moment. I will never feel bad for killing

another f*****g vamp again.” He told me, the emotion filling him all over again as he talked to me.

I understood. Some things are too horrible to speak about, especially if it’s something you watched

happen to someone you have spent your life alongside like he had with Misty and Harland.

“I guess the issue I have here is that even though I understand that it’s probably not something she

should hear, how do I get her past this without hearing it?” I asked.

He shrugged his shoulders. He was just as clueless as I was about how to move forward from

here.

I allowed him to go back to what he was doing, and I went off to go find Harland again. Once I

found him, I realized that Freya is quite a bit like him. He’s buried in work and not really interested in

taking a break. It took a good few times of trying to figuratively pull him away to talk to me before he finally got the hint.

He walked off with me and in just a matter of seconds he asked, “What do you need Alpha?”

I looked over at him and he was looking around like he couldn’t just relax and focus. A lot like Freya

has been lately.

“Harland…” I began, trying to get him to realize I am speaking to him as his son in law and not a fellow alpha of a pack, “I think Freya could use a sit down with you.”

He looked over at me, the look on his face didn’t tell me he understood at all.

“Is she needing to learn something?” He asked me

“Umm, no Harland. I just think she needs her dad right now.” I answered, really trying to understand what about this he isn’t quite understanding.

“Is she okay?” He asked. Still, something about the way he’s asking is telling me he’s not really

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understanding what I’m saying.

I decided I needed to just come out with it, “No Harland, I don’t think she is. She’s not spending time with her kids, she’s avoiding me, she just freaked out on Jessi, she’s burying herself in work, and she’s not processing her grief, She needs her dad.” I stopped walking and turned to him hoping

he understood,

He stopped walking but just kept looking in front of him. “Colt, I know what you’re asking here and I’m telling you I can’t do it, I cannot tell her what happened to Misty, I just can’t.” He finally answered.

“Tell her or don’t Harland, she is not in a good way, she needs something. She isn’t allowing herself to process what she’s feeling because she doesn’t have a direction to place her emotions. She knows she’s sad she lost her mom, obviously, But Harland you need to put yourself in her shoes. I talked to Luke and I understand what happened was so horrific that it really isn’t likely to do a good

deal for her to know the details but she needs something.”

Domina Sacarius